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(girl on girl) in love with my best friend
This year i will graduate sophmore year in high school. I can say with no doubt that since I was little, I have never not had a best freind. Yes, I have lost my best friends before, but it seems like right in time for the next one to come in. But this girl is different. I met Lisa last year and now we are literally inseperable. i have never had a friend that understands me like she does, and I couldnt imagine going through theese rough high school years without her. Heres the catch...
Lisa is very mysterious. although she claims to always tell me everything, I am yet to stop findin out more things i didnt no abotu her. The biggest one being that she dated ANOTHER GIRL at the beggining of the year. she still has no idea i know (sidenote I am not against any gay people, i was just shcoked to find out she dated a girl because i never had thought of the possiblilty of her 2 be gay). Anyway, know she seems straight as ever. but i still wonder.
Lisa is also very un-touchy feely. She gets unfortable at the slightest things. She just started hugging me this year, and that was a huge step.
But here is my problem..
I think i may be in love with her.
I need help ! i cant tell if i am or not. You see, ever since Decemeber when i found out she dated a girl, I have been getting theese thoughts in my mind. They used to be just thoughts of me wanting to hug her, but not anymore. Now, we cuddle all the time, and sometimes are faces get real close. And i think about her kissing me. Im not even if i CRAVE it, i just get theese thoughts. And i always want to be around her and When i am iwth her i want her all to myself. I have never considered the option that I am gay...but dont no if theese thoughts are normal? I have though about dating her..and to me that seems ew. Just not for me. But whenever we get close...
I feel a strong connection to her and almost wish i could just try to kiss her. but than i feel silly and shut it down.
Heres another thing...
My friends say she OBSSESED with me.
I dont see it, proabbly because i am obessed with her. but idontkno...
One of my friends even thinks shes in love with me. But idontknow if thats true. Thing is, whenever i am not madly in love with being her best friend, I f*king hate her guts. literally I am so annoyed with about 30 percent of the time it ends up cativiating my mind. My freinds say shes a bad influence on me, but im not sure.
Either way, i am just really confused. Is this normal thoughts? Or should i question my sexual orientation?
I had to leave alot out of this story since i didnt want to make it to long, so if u have any questions..shoot me an Inbox. thanks for the help! it is much needed!
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Your feelings are normal but not many people have them. There is such a thing as being Bi-sexual. Women who are attracted to other women and some act upon that attraction and enjoy sexual relations. The one's I know of, most all were married and had a healthy marriage. The husband was very understand and allowed her to have her girl lovers. This does not make one gay. Since you are still young, you may discover in the future, you are interested in guys or maybe not. Perhaps you will marry and have kids. So many possibilities. I am not saying you might be bi sexual or gay, but since that current situation is there for you, it would be a safe one to explore. I say "safe" because it is the one way girls can explore sex and orgasms without possibility of getting pregnant. Bear in mind that emotionally it can be very rocky at times due to the fact that females have their cycles and get quite PMS ing and nasty in temperament. Does this help or do you need to expand on your story?
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