From what you have written you can correct what is wrong in your life. If your wife is merciless and cruel; divorce not suicide is the answer. If your ambitions have not been fulfilled once you are out from under your wife's thumb you will be free to find ways to fulfill your dreams, including going back to school to get the education you need to fulfill your needs. You are never to old to learn. I don't know how old you are but even old dogs can be taught new tricks.
Please call the National Suicide Prevention Hot Line. No matter what problems you are dealing with, they want to help you find a reason to keep living. By calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) you’ll be connected to a skilled, trained counselor at a crisis center in your area, anytime 24/7.
If you are feeling actively suicidal call 911 and help will be sent to you. I know you feel like you have many reasons for dying, they are in fact reasons to live. There are people who can help you, who are ready to help. All you need to do is pick up a phone. [ adviceman49's advice column | Ask adviceman49 A Question ]
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