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In Love With The Devil
Hello, my name is Laken. I am 16 years old, female, and consider myself above average in looks. I am 5"9' and blond hair brown eyed; I also model from time to time. When I was young and naive I fell in love with a man I truly believe to be my soul mate. He is 6"2' brown hair, tan, and his eyes are the color of the loveliest sea foam. He makes my heart stop, something no one ever does, but sometimes he hates me. Another thing no one else ever does. He can hate me from the very center of his core, but the moment I am in danger hes the first one there. How can he hate me so much but want to protect me more than anyone else? He has called me mean things and tries to knock me down a notch every chance he can get. Earning himself the nickname "The Devil". I don't know why I fell in love with him, but it's as if my feelings are going to rip apart my body. He acknowledged my feelings some time ago and as a result I lost my virginity to him. I have dated 2 men since him and its just not the same, the guys were sweet, but I wont settle for anyone I don't have feelings for. Shameful as it is to say he and I slept together last night. And I have a boyfriend. I feel terrible, but at the same time I don't feel like I should. My boyfriend cheated on his girlfriend with my best friend before we ever started dating, so i know hes a cheated and I don't trust him for it. I was in love with this man long before i ever met my boyfriend. I want to be with him forever. I am telling you all this because i am desperately in love with a man. And it hurts more than death. So my question is this, what should i do with my love for The Devil?
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Honey you are very young and you seem so serious. You are being manipulated by this man. He has you convienced that he's superior to you. Like you should feel honored that he'd even notice you. Honey that's not love, that mental abuse. When someone loves you they want to help you be all that you can be. They support you and they have your back at all times, not just when there's danger and they'll come out looking to you like some hero (which will only make you feel more in-debted to them.) Nothing good can come of a relationship where you know already that he is mean and hates you at times and his name is "The Devil." Get away from him. Destroy all ways to contact him and don't let him make you feel unworthy or unlovable. IT'S NOT LOVE, IT'S MENTAL ABUSE!!
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