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BiPolar Much??? Plz answer Thankyouu
i am 14/f. almost 15. but I have been in therapy since i was 12 when my parents divorced. the weird thing was i had such GREAT self confidence and self worth that i wanted them the get divorced, and i didnt care if they got remarried or whatever i just figured if they got divorced it would be best and everything would be ok. well they did....but in a horrible, messy way that me and my 4 other siblings were dragged into. my narcissistic dad dragged me into it and pulled me under, which i wanted nothing to do with. it took me about 3 years to realize what he is. and he doesnt care about anyone but himself. all i tried to do was keep my family happy but all he did was make my life that much harder than it was the day before. now my family is doing tons better. me and my two other siblings are not seeing my father because we dont like him, the very least. And i/ we do not need to. ANYWAY i have gone through soooooooo much and i am the last one to be a drama queen. my dad has pressured me into the worst things and i hate him for that. he manipulated me into everything. and now as i am in therapy i am taking it all in. about a year a half ago i didnt see my dad for like 6 months and he didnt give two shits. i cut i drank, i smoke to dissolve the pain. now i feel 100% different. i like the way i feel about "leaving" him. I am much more relieved because ei don’t have deal with him or his BS. BUT i am still left with bad emotions. i am still batting depression which i do not take any med for i want to do it on my own. but i know what bipolar is and how people act when they've had it, im not stupid. Basically the manic and depressive moods/behavior i go through if not every day. its just about now im realzing it. i know its not 100% accurate but i took an online bipolar quiz and i got the highest score. you can tell me because i am a teenage girl its likely for me to act like PMS. first of all not the case. i know my body and how i act when im on my period or just have a bad day. its completely differnt then being bipolar. PMSing is like you have really bad cramps, tired, cranky, hungry, bitchy. ok thats totally true BUT i get these emotions and way more worse ones, and act out this way to evryone for about three years. EVERY single day i feel and act manic/depressive. no joke im not making it up.i will LITERALLY start a conversations tired and mumbling/slurring my words then sped up very excitedly for no reason then calm down again. if i get a lot of money i spend it all, which is not like me. i had like 200 dollars and i spent it all, only when i got home did i realize what i did. i've always had a bad temper but i have the worst rages and take it out on the people i love. it's ruining relationships with people, im losing friends and dont know what to do. i feel like im going crazy. im sure i have this illness. if you knew me you'd probablly agree. i feel either manic/depressive all the time there is no in between. my mom's ex husband (my dad) doesnt pay shit and not even health insurance for his own kids. i want all the help i can get but i dont feel like there’s even a point to telling my mom or therapist this if i cant get screened and get help with no money coming from my mom or dad. i really want and need help and if i dont get it i honeslty dont know what will happen next.
i took the quiz at [Link](Mouse over link to see full location) it basicaly asks do you feel up one moment then down the next. and i tried to answer carefully and read each question twice. and either aswered like yes 100% or yes. but thank you so much for advice.
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This could very well be bipolar disorder. Or not. You have been through a lot and it could be classified as PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder). What you need to do is see a psychiatrist. They can give you a diagnosis. At your age, they may still say it is just a part of growing up. Stand up for what you feel and let them know this is not normal. Do not try to do this on your own without medication. If you are actually bipolar, medication will make a world of difference. I had to do it on my own for a while because we didn't have insurance. I ended up in the ER after a suicide attempt. Then, just recently, my medication stopped working and I went to a psych hospital for a week. Make sure you see a psychiatrist regularly if you are diagnosed and keep track of your moods in a journal or log so you can know if your meds are working. If/when prescribed meds, give them at least 6 weeks before you decide they are not working. Many take that long to reach therapeutic levels.
As for support, look for your local depression and bipolar support alliance. They have fantastic groups. I actually facilitate one now. Go here to search: [Link](Mouse over link to see full location)
If you do not have insurance or money, you can find a place in your area that serves low-income people without insurance, usually on a sliding scale based on income.
Definitely talk to your mom and your therapist. They can direct you to services to get diagnosed and helped. Do not wait until it gets worse.
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I am neither a doctor or a lawyer none of us are. I am though someone that has suffered through depression so I can understand the pain you feel.
There is help for you as I will explain. You are 14 years old which under a law called HIPPA allows you medical confidentiality and the ability to seek medical treatment without requiring mom or dads permission.
The reason I said I was not a lawyer is. In most if not all divorces the courts make parents accountable for there children's well being. This would include that one if not both parents would be required to continue to keep health care insurance up for all the children until they are 18 years of age. You do not need to be a lawyer to understand that the, in all states, requires a parent to be legally responsible for the health and welfare of their children until they are 18.
While I am not a lawyer I have many friends that are. None know of any court that would allow or approve of a divorce that does not take into account the well being of the children of that marriage. As part of that well being generally includes health insurance. If dad has been ordered by the court in the divorce proceeding, something you would have to read the full order to find out, and has not done so. He would be in contempt of court and be sent to jail until he complies.
That being said as a 14 year old there are other programs that are in place and other services that are available to you. As you are now 14 years of age under a federal law called HIPPA you do not need parental permission to seek medical help.
Those are the rules and the law something you truly need not worry about. How you get help is as follows.
You as you know have to be diagnoses by a doctor to find out if you suffer from depression and if you are a manic depressive, bi polar disorder. You can be diagnosed by going to your family doctor. You can also to the nearest hospital ER and telling them exactly what you have told us about cutting yourself, drinking,smoking and if the smoking is weed tell them that too. You will be helped whether you can pay or not. Also tell them about the manic episodes as it is important.
If you are still cutting and feel like cutting before you can get to the doctor or hospital; pick up the phone and dial 911, help will be sent to you. Yes, 911 is there to help you for this type problem. They will send an ambulance to take you to the ER where there are doctors who can help you.
Need more help or support the following URLS will take you to websites that can help you.
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The National Alliance on Mental Illness. This URL will take you to their locator page where you can find the local NAMI office for where you live. They will help you find the right people to help you.
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This site will help you find a support group if you are diagnosed with bi polar disorder. Depression hurts I know and it is a vicious cycle. Depression causes stress, stress causes you to hurt and hurt and stress cause pain. Finding a support group may help.
I hope the information I've given you helps. I know how hopeless this illness can make you feel, There is help, you need not worry about the cost. That is a problem for your parents not you. You need to seek help; with or without your parents help. So go to the nearest hospital ER, ask for help at school. But get the help you need . This is not an illness you can overcome yourself. You need the help of professional doctors.
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