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I want to die so can't see my mom's face
I think that I am depressed, but I am only 17 years.old. The reason for my blues is because nothing seems to be going right. My mom keeps grilling me on what career to be: doctor , lawyer, etc. To be honest I don't want to be anything , I just want to sleep. But i am considering French, I do very well in it. But my mom keeps nagging me on my speech in French , she keeps questioning my ability to speak it fluently, in her opinion if I cannot speak it fluently by the time I graduate then I should give up! But can anyone fully speak French or any language by graduation? Then she kept grilling me on my attire, I wear pants, and shirts, but I hate dresses, skirts, and heels! She keeps saying that i should dress more girly?! But girls can crossdress abd still be feminie . I like wearing boys clothes I feel so empowered, but I still like men, I am not gay, I do not want to go to prom, I hate parties! My mom is making me depressed and feel discouraged and confuse on what to do with myself. I keep thinking about suicidesbd death, I feel more insecure and inner demons are driving me insane?! How can I make everything right and gain confidence in myself?
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Parents, can't live with them can't live without them. Speaking as a parent; moms over protectiveness is being unfair to you. You sound like any typical 17 year old male or female.
It is unfortunate that high school does not truly prepare you to do much more than go on to college. If you do not wish to go on to college there are not many choices open to you. This is what parents worry about and what mom is fixating on. Mom is also somewhat homophobic concerning your manner of dress; ignore her. Your style is your style not hers.
You are depressed. Whether you are clinically depressed or suffering from teenage depression or normal depression everyone suffers from time to time, I am not qualified to say. You need to see your family doctor and have the doctor screen you for depression. There are medications that can help with clinical and teenage depression that will allow you to feel better. In all three types of depression talking with a therapist should be of great help to you as the conversations are totally confidential and you say whatever you need to say and get better advice than we can give you.
As for being 17 and having a real direction as to what you want to do with your life upon graduation? Buck up your normal; about 50% of all teenagers have no real direction. They go off to college either following a liberal arts major or a major suggested by their parents. In the third year of college they change direction and finally chose what they want.
Have you given any thought or spoken to any Military Recruiters. The military is a great opportunity to try out a potential career choice and get paid while attending some college course. When you leave the military you will have money to finish your education. Just a thought to offer.
My advice: See your doctor and be screened for depression. Find a therapist to talk to. In all other respects your a normal teenager an mom is just being a mom. Try and swinging with her being an overprotective mom. The therapist can help you greatly with that.
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Ignore it!!! Do what you want. You will have a job one day, and there will come a day when you'll find an epic dress that you may want to wear! Just study hard so you can do anything in the future- she just wants you to do well. If youre happy, thats the main thing.
Hey, If you really want to annoy her, just speak in french ALL the time.
~that way, she'll know you can speak french, and it will improve as you go! :D
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