|
Am I okay to feel this way? I love him so much.
For the past two days, I've had this extreme longing to tell my boyfriend that I want to have a future with him. I was trying to tell him all night on Friday, but every time we stopped kissing and had a silence, I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Yesterday, we went on a picnic by the bay and went for a walk downtown. We went into a secluded area and kissed, and I knew this was the time to say it. He held me close and I put my mouth close to his ear, and he could tell I was hesitating on something. "You're thinking..." he said. He always knows me so well. I told him I had something to say, but the words were stuck in my throat. "Are you breaking up with me?" he asked. I managed to choke out, "No...it's the complete opposite." He looked up and stood up and hugged me tight and said, "You know we can't do that now." I could feel tears rimming my eyes. I was disappointed in myself. I wanted to tell him how much I love him and how much he makes me so happy and how much I want him in my future, but I couldn't bring myself to say it. I was too anxious. I wanted it to be special, but I was so cowardly and now he knows and my surprise confession is ruined. I feel selfish and stupid. I cried when he dropped me off home. I was just so intent on telling him face to face. It was so much easier in my imagination. Am I right to act like this? Is it okay to feel disappointed and upset that I ruined my own surprise?
I wanted to tell him everything I feel and how amazing my future would be with him... I was thinking of putting it in a letter but I thought it'd be more meaningful face to face.
[ ]
Want to answer more questions in the Relationships category?
Maybe give some free advice about: Love Life?
when you feel nervous try to imagine as if he is going to marry to another girl where you feel that if i could not tell my feelings, i will miss him in my whole life... this imagination works wonder when you are nervous because it makes you go a head and tell your feelings hoping u would miss him.do not worry u can do it.
]
It's Normal To Be Mad At Yourself. And, You Could Put It In A Letter, But You're Right; It Is Better And Meaningful For Face-To-Face. You Just Need To Come Out Of Your Shell And Tell Him. If You Truly Love Him, And Want To Have A Future With Him, You Need To Tell Him That. Even Though You Ruined Your Suprise To Him, You Gotta Come Out And Say It.
I Hope I Helped, And I Hope Everything Goes Well! :)
]
if you feel as though it was "ruined" by the way you handled it face to face then maybe going ahead with your letter idea would help. usually it's easier to get ideas out on paper and it would probably be easier for you if he read it and knew the whole truth instead of not knowing why you're so choked up and being left in the dark. I hope everything works out for you though. Good luck!
]
More Questions: |