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Should I seek treatment?
Ever since I met this guy,a friend, I've had thoughts of suicide and self harm. Sometimes I will cut, but not deep. Sometimes I bleed sometimes I don't. I feel like I have depression cause I haven't been able to feel happy and worry free in awhile. My ex just dumped me and I really want him back because nothing bad ever happened with us. But I guess he wants another chance with his 8th grade crush so I've been told. My grandpa just died a week ago and I'm still hurt from that. I've been verbally sexually harassed and had to quit my job. I have a lot of things going on that makes things seem like nothing is going right in my life. Well my friend, who I secretly love, hacked my facebook somehow and is making me feel guilty for just talking to other guys. Yes, I would say some dirty things to go along with it, but I never did anything with them. This guy started to make me feel shitty about myself. He went on to say he deserves better and Im a hoe and he doesnt feel bad for me and what happens to me. This was too nights ago and I lost it. When he said goodbye I was holding a knife in my hand for awhile..just looking at it. Thinking if I should do it or not. I cut my legs but it wasn't deep. But then I held the point of the knife to my chest and just closed my eyes for a bit thinking ..it could all end like this..in a second. But I couldn't do it. Thinking about my mom and the rest of my family. Should I get help? Like treatment? I dont want to tell mom any of this but I dont want to lose her either. I have stopped talking to this guy but Im still not happy. I've tried to starve myself as well
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Yes you need help. I am old enough to be a grandparent myself so please listen to me.
What you are doing to yourself and what you are thinking puts you in crisis and in the need of immediate medical intervention. You should be telling you parents of this and asking for help.
My concern is such that if mom is not at home I am going to ask you to call 911 and ask for help. You tell them you are having suicidal thoughts. In most towns what happens is the fire department and the police will respond. The fire department to provide emergency medical help and take you to the hospital emergency room. The police are there to protect and help you as well. You are not in any trouble and are not subject to being arrested.
One of the reasons that both the police and fire department are sent to you is simply this. We want the closest help to get to you in the quickest manner. Normally this would be the fire department though occasionally a police officer on patrol will be closer.
If you are reading this in school go to the health room and ask for help. Tell the health assistant or nurse what you have told us about holding a knife to your chest and your cutting. They will send for the fire department.
Yes you need treatment. You are understanding this which is the first step to getting better. Now take the next step and do what you need to do and ask for that help.
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I think you need to focus on your life and what you want to do with it. Forget those 'friends' who put you down and put negative thoughts into your head, they're not doing you any favours.
Talk to your Mom, you don't have to mention the cutting, just general chat about how life's getting you down etc.
Look around for new friends with similar interests to you, search online for clubs, groups or societies in your area you could join to give you something outside your life to think about.
Give guys of any kind a rest until you feel more like your usual self; if you hool up with someone while you're in this negative mood, he might be the wrong one for your positive side.
Be good to yourself, give yourself small treats of doing things you really enjoy, an hour of reading a good book, gardening or singing will relax you and brighten your mood. You and your Mom could really push the boat out and have a spa treatment afternoon!
Hope this helps, let me know how you get on?
Best wishes XX.
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