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Please Read it would be much appreciated :/ <3
i cant say i have fully "lost my first love" but im experiencing my first love right now.
me and him have broken up 4 times.... except we always seemed to come back to each other cause we cant fall out of love. im currently in a relationship with him. and i will do anything for him. i understand though because i am COMPLETELY and utterly scared of loosing him. i feel like if i do i will feel alone and die. thats how much i care and love him. i feel like there is no one else out there for me.
Also he was my first. first boyfriend. first kiss. first anything sexual. and we both lost our virginity to each other. (during the time i have kissed other people during the month period that we broke up one time) but it was just NOT THE SAME..... never felt right. actually made me feel gross. and just made me want HIM more. same happend with him... and then we ended up back together. BUT he is moving :( i can drive in 2months or so..... but im scared until then we will grow apart or something will happen and im just really scared of loosing him. he is my first love and i am experiencing it. and it takes over your life completely. HE controls my emotions. if me and him are good. im in a good mood. if me and him are fighting i feel dead and become anti social. i havent realized it was a mistake. i dont think it is since it is both our first love and first alot of things with each other. and i can just say i cant picture myself with anyone else.
the odds are we either stay on and off or together and end up marrying each other.
or something happens and we will loose each other ... but i am so afraid of that cause i cant picture my life without him or anyone else.
sometimes i wonder though by his words and actions if he loves me as much as i love him............... thats the only wondering i regret. (putting my hear out if he isnt loving me as much as i am)
actual i know for a fact that i show my love in a different way than he does and i am more emotional and like to talk and am very open with my feelings. yet when he hurts me i close up and makeit hard to let people in.
think im crazy or not but im feeling all this at age 16. im a 16 year old girl and please dont say im to young or dont know what love is cause i do..... i know this is love. but im just not sure wether or not i will be okay throughout this whole thing.
i reallly needed to vent and finally say this out loud.
i would really appreciate peoples opinion on what i just wrote. <3 thank you.
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first of all i think first love is SO OVER RATED!!!! love is love first or last.... i think just let him move.. give each other some space..by space i not only mean giving each other but give your mind a break too. Maybe if you let your mind free of all those thoughts related to him. you can have the opportunity to ACTUALLY think without your mind being clogged by emotional turmoil u go through cos of the breaking up and patching up. relax! i am going to say you are too young not because you talk about love but because you are too young to go through all this weariness at this age.... if you both survive the distance then its worth everything you are feeling.. cheer up and enjoy life as it comes! :)
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First let me tell you that it will be okay. When he moves you two need to keep a lot of communication, call, text, email, letters.. Do as much as you can to keep in touch.. It will be hard but if it is meant to be it will be... If its not you will just slowly drift away and thats okay... thee will be others in your life.. when it happens at first it may be hard but you will get over it and it will be okay.... but its not happening yet so dont worry. Just focus on keeping your relationship alive and everything will be okay good luck
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I will say honestly that love has no age limit. Men are very different than women, especially in terms of showing emotion or feelings. I was fifteen when I fell in love for the first time. I find myself still thinking about that person even after all these years. I can understand you feelings, and drifting apart is a very painful process. But it sounds like he feels the same way as you. No matter where you guys are, those feelings will still be the same. If you believe, he will believe, and you will have nothing to worry about. It is true love is a battlefield, but it conquers over everything.
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