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I feel Lonely and Useless to the world.
Well, I am moving soon away from the person I love alot. He has been there for me ever since i moved here and his friends and family are awsome! But my mom decides to move due to really personal issues and there is no way to change her mind. Me and her DO NOT get along! Everday i go home after school and into my room and lock myself in my room and cry into a pillow. I have actually tried to commit suicide three times and I have been cutting myself. But I had quit cause i already 13 marks on my arm. But i feel useless on this world..like no one will miss me when I'm gone. I want to die but at the same time i don't want to face the consequences of hell. What should I do? I dont know why i have these feelings of depression..its not because of my mom.. I love her to death even though we don't get along. and I noticed that im going throught this at a very young age, 12 and a half to be specific. I dont want therapy because first it will make it worse and i will think i gone crazy and just cry even more. I feel like a mistake. Or that i have one of those illnesses that could be cured. please help me, i am scared that i'll snap one day and just runaway from home and on the verge of life and death. i am female.
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I am 32 years old and I'm alive and well and here to tell you you WILL get through this. I was just like you when I was your age, everything you said is exactly what I went through, how I felt, and I tried to kill myself too and thank God it didnt work. I have had so many beautiful and wonderful experiences since those times and always think how thankful I am to be alive and all I've been through in my life has made me so strong and proud of myself. You will go through troubles in your life but that's okay. They are just there to make you strong. Also, you are not alone and you are loved. I don't even know you but I love you and can relate to your pain. You will make many friends over the course of your life. There are people you haven't met yet that need you. You have to just move on and be the best person you can be. Start reading self-help books that talk about positive things to build yourself up. Start eating right and taking vitamins and omega-3 to boost your mind and immune system also helps with depression. You dont need therapy and drugs. Draw closer to your source (God) and He will take your hand and walk you through the flames and fill you with love and warmth. If you ever need to talk you can write to me anytime. Hugs, Jaimie
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Firstly, never EVER think you are useless. Because you are amazing, and i can promise you that even though you may not know it there are so many people in this world that would miss you. I understand about the fact that you cut yourself and tried to commit suicide as many of my friends have also done and tried, but it is not right, at all. And these are things that you will regret, trust me. I know you said you wouldn't want therapy but it really does help. In situations like this you NEED someone to talk to and as you can't talk to your mom,these are the people that can really help and get you out of this state.
You are not crazy or useless, it is just that if you honestly do believe this about yourself then this is what you will become. So please, please take my advice and talk to someone, it doesn't even need to be a therapist, just someone who can help and relate because all of this staying inside of you will not help.
Inbox me if you need any further advice.
Good luck.
JazzLouise' xo
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I think that you will feel allot less lonely if you have a better relationship with your mom. As you said, you love her to death. Tell her how you feel. If any one would understand, it would be your mom. I think One of the main reasons you have such a bad relationship with your mom is because of the move. You should talk to her about how you feel. Open up to her. Maybe just saying what is on your mind could help her understand and maybe even change her mind.
Trying to do suicide must mean that you are going to something pretty rough in your life. You should write in a diary how you feel. Say why it is that you do these actions. Figure out why you feel this way.
This may sound pretty stupid to you, and you would probably think, yeah right, Alice thinks she know every thing, but this is true and it really helps:
To every problem is an answer.
This is true. Instead of asking for advice and whining (I really don't mean to offend you) you should do something about your situation.
For example:
Problem: You love someone allot have to move away.
Answer: Email him ever day, visit him during the holiday, stay in touch with him until you are old enough to move back. Look up to the future. Try to pursued you mom by telling her how you feel to stay there.
You see how you should look for solutions to your problem instead of whining about them. In your life you are going through a face right now that most teens go through. I myself went through it once. I was 12 (same age as you) and my mom and I where not even close, but I loved her. When she said that those things where nice I would completely disagree although I really did like it. I thought I met my sole mate. But when we changed classes and we where not in the same class any more I was heart broken. I talked to the principle and they moved me to his class. After a week he dumped me. I even ran away once from home. After that, I came back hungry and no where to go. That is when it started to go better, and now me and my mom are best friends. And I got over my ex. I know how you feel, sometimes you just feel like "Why do I exist, I am a mistake of god." But as I always say, There is a purpose for every one on this earth. And they all create their own future.
Please tell me if this advice helped. For any more questions please email me at AskAliceMadisson@hotmail.com If you don't thrust my advice go to my temporary website: www.askalicemadisson.webstarts.com. I give professional advice.
Advice of the week: Yesterday was to past, tomorrow is the future and today is a gift, that's why it is called the present!
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