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Sexually Confused...
I am a fifteen-year-old student. Just a small-town girl. Living in a loooonely world~ XD Just kidding. I have an amazing boyfriend; we've been together for a solid ten months, and I know I love him with all my heart.
But I've started asking myself a lot of questions lately. It all started at a summer boarding program, in which I was a part of the Theater program. It was basically me locked in a room with fifteen other unique, creative people. This was the first point in which I really noticed a change.
We were playing Truth or Dare. After having so many stereotypical dares (kiss this guy, hump that pole :P :P), everyone just decided to start kissing everybody. I, not really awkwarded out, joined in, making sure to avoid the guys because I knew my boyfriend would be bothered about it.
When I got back to my room, started to think about it, and realized that I had actually enjoyed that night. Later on in the week, at the big dance, I even danced pretty intensly with one of the girls; there were sparks flying everywhere.
A few days later, back at home, I really started flashing back on my life. I finally understood for the first time that I had been pretty attracted to girls for a while, especially my best friend. Also, soon after the whole kissing incident, I found out that one of my idols that I had met a while ago had kissed a bunch of people I know. I had no idea that she swung that way; honestly, it made me suddenly want to get to know her even more.
Since then, it's been growing. I am really magnetized to certain girls, but still am so confused. I've always been a hard-working Catholic, but I find I'm unable to block these strong feelings I get every time certain people are near me.
So my main question is...am I bisexual? And if I am, how do I deal with it?
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This is very interseting. You may just be at the age where if you have a certain thought your autimatically that kind of person. But you may be into girls and you know what, if you are thats totally fine. dont be ashamed or embarassed. Its a free world. You will figure it out sooner or later. It may just be a stage in your life.
Good luck! And remember you have nothing to be embarassed about if you do discover your into girls.
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I am a great deal older than most of the advisers on this site, so my advice will be somewhat different from what you may have received and may continue to receive from others.
At your present age I would be hesitant to place a label on your sexuality. At this age both boys and girls are still trying to figure out their sexuality. To label yourself as a Lesbian or even bi-curious would not only be wrong but self defeating at this time. To even put this in the category of a phase that most young people go through would not be right either.
There are a number of reasons for sexual attraction to someone of our own sex at this age. First and foremost is the fact it is safer and easier to relieve the sexual tension brought on by the changing hormones your body is producing. Parents think nothing of two children of the same sex being behind closed doors, sleeping together, even in the same bed, particularly females.
I have known women that have been bi all through college, then gone straight heterosexual afterwards. Reason it was easier and sex was more available if you were bi; it was also safer.
My advice: Don’t put a label on your sexuality at this time. Just enjoy learning about who you are sexually. When you are more adult if you still want to put a label on your sexuality then do so, but for now just enjoy being you.
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It's common for people to have these feelings toward the same gender. Most people do question their sexuality, but everyone eventually picks a side. There's no real way for anyone to tell you if you are bisexual, only you can decide that for yourself. But, whether you're bisexual, straight, or gay, you will figure it out. But the most important thing is not to force yourself against any decision. Do what feels right and nothing except what you want.
The only honest advice I can give is to just be yourself and everything will soon fall into place. If you end up deciding that you are bisexual, the best you can do is accept it and stay happy. Tell your parents, but make a gradual change. Let your close friends know and be open about it. There's nothing wrong with being bisexual, a lot of people lean towards it.
In the end, as long as you're excepting of yourself, there's nothing you need to worry about. Hope this helped, good luck! :)
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Acceptance.
The truth that everyone denies is almost no one is straight up gay or straight. Most people have some degree of latent attraction to the same and opposite sexes and it's just common for one to be far stronger than the other.
Some people are closer to the middle, and can go both ways fairly easily.
My wife is bisexual. It's not something she's acted on much, but it's definitely a part of who she is. We've talked about it at length and agree that she should be aware of and acknowledge all parts of herself.
Liking girls doesn't change the fact that she loves me, wants to be a mother someday, and is committed to our relationship. It just means that she's got some sexual desires that don't get indulged in much.
I will say, that having issues "blocking the feelings" is an artifact of teenage hood. All teenagers are horny and ridiculous, it's puberty and the resulting hormones that turn sexual desire into something that takes your attention from other things and turns into something of a personal issue. Won't go on forever.
If you're bisexual, you'll figure it out. Most bisexual people tend towards one sex or the other, sometimes because they're more drawn to one sex and sometimes because they're just used to and more comfy with that sex. You have a boyfriend. You love him. Being bisexual won't change that.
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