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Let Me Tell you My Painful Little Story.
Okay so it all started about a year and a half ago! I had just gotten suspended from school for the rest of the year because of fighting. My friend Mariah had ran from her group home and I joined her. After our first night on the run, we were introduced to a couple people, one of them being the boy I would fall in love with, Jason! I can replay the first moment I seen him with perfection, as if it just happened. Here came this loud, adorable boy in his dickies! It was an instant attraction! That night me and mariah stayed at his house and me and him stayed up all night.(justkissing) Did I mention we were EXTREMELY drunk?! Well the next day when I woke up laying next to him, I pretended like that night never happened, even though I had major hickies. He tried so many times to talk to me and until I was again drunk that night I blew him off! Then once I was drunk we were more 2gether, it was crazy! THEN this guy we call "blackboy" came and I found him extremely attractive, and considering how drunk I was I was completely open about that feeling! That night I had sex with him in jasons room! Long story short:: next day Jason was pissed at me but then we talked ALOT and made up and I had sex with him that night, and the next day I left and didnt see him again for a while!!!!! ......About A Month Later..... So i was no longer on the run and my birthday was coming up. And without saying I wanted to see him I was determined to make sure I spent my birthday with him, and I did. That night is the best mmemory of my life, and the night I fell in love!(July10th2009♥). We did not have sex that night but we went on a super long walk together, and spent an AMAZING night 2gether>>WITHOUT SEX!! ..The next day i went home!! .....2WeeksLater.... So I was going to hang out with my friend mario and his homeboys and we were gonna drink! well I got drunk and had sex with 2boys that night! they were cousins, and Jasons good friends, and he showed up the next day. He freaked out on me then left, and about an hour later came back and wanted 2 "talk" and spend the day with me.We had sex that night. If i went on in detail about it would take me a century to write about it BUT our relationship mainly consisted of me sleeping with his friend, him cheating on girlfriends with me, fighting, sex, alot of great memories, and in the end him hating me!!
Now here's my dilema! I put myself in rehab for three months FOR HIM! I cant deal with him hating me. We havent talked in almost 4months. Ive been working so hard to turn my life around for him. AND today I find out he's going to be doing 6 to 8 years jail time for being a look out for a shooting. I LOVE HIM!! My anxiety litterally is hurting me! Please dont give me advice on how, "I dont know what love is" or "What we had wasnt love" or "how to get over him" I NEED advice on how I can work things out with him if i write him or I need to know hotline numbers to talk to someone about this kind of thing.
When you give me advice just consider that i am an EXTREMELY determined girl who is in love and not even slightly considering giving up!!!
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This is free advice...so its as good as what you paid for it :)
If you are determined to stay with this boy and you love him, then let him know, send him a letter/e-mail/text and tell him.
Also now that you are thru ReHab and your working your steps think about what you want. What are you going to change to make this relationship work and let him know that.
The past is the past you know what you did and what he knows about and you need to find out if he does want to be with you.
Ask yourself this...are you willing to wait around for him for 6-7 years if he goes to jail? Are you willing to stop seeing other guys and only see him?
You are the only person that can answer those questions.
Again this is free advice take it or leave it...don't complain about it
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Girl that commented first!
I asked for no comments like that!
Im not giving up!!!
I know i fucked up!
& I didnt fuck 2guys in his room, you read wrong!!!
YES our relationship was unhealthy BUT there was real feeling there I felt it! and i know he felt it too, because he was so good at showing it!
I love this Boy and I refuse to give up!!
so please Ive heard enough negativity about this from other people! Im looking to people on this website to help me!! I know it sounds wierd and may make know sense but all the times I messed up WERE things that happened when i was drunk and i know thats no excuse at all! but as hard as it is to believe, at the begining of each of those days my plans were based on him! hoping if I hung out with his friends he would show up and I would see him! But I am a very complicated and strive for emotianal attention, and so when all those guys went for it with me it was extremely hard for me to say no, so I just give in!! I have made alot of mistakes in my life! but losing him is the one I regret most!
So please people HELP ME??!! I want help advice anything!
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Im really sorry, but I just cant keep quiet on this one.
This sounds like a very un healthy relationship, your talking about how much you like him, but at the same time your screwing a bunch of other people. And so is he?
Its just not healthy. You do realize you can get stds right?
He has every right to hate you you slept with 2 guys in his bedroom, its just disgusting.
Its good that you went to rehab, because you def sound like you need it. Maybe when your over whatever addictions you have, you can try to talk to him, but if he doesn't want to talk to you don't be surprised.
Sorry this is so harsh, and you can rate me a 1, but its the truth.
Make sure you use condoms.
Did you ever think that maybe he's using you? Think about it, he dates other girls but comes back to you to sleep together. Why wont he date you if hes willing to date other people?
If you really want to date him hes going to need to trust you, its that simple. Sure you guys can fuck all you want, but that doesn't mean love. You might love him but you have to make sure that he feels the same way..
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