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I can't stop thinking about it
I'm sixteen and female when I was thirteen I had two surgeries on my stomach it was tough but I got over it now at the end of januaray I was put in and had three more surgeries on my stomach it's been hard for me to get through it usually impretty independent but it's been really hard I just wanna be normal again which isn't happening cuZ I'm not allowed to go to school or work I'm pretty much not allowed out of my house I just wanna be normal like everyone else is but I can't get it back to that and it's starting to really get to me and I used to cut and I'm starting to get those urges again I just don't know what to do. Please help me.
- sleepiesheep
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Hey!
My mom was really sick when she was a teenager, and after she had me, she had to go in for a countless number of surgeries on her stomach including having her pancreas and gall bladder removed when I was about 12. It was extremely hard on her, and at the risk of sounding selfish, it was hard on me.
I've always had this idea of what "normal" is, and I've never felt like my family was normal. it used to bother me, and even though I am lucky enough to lead a pretty "normal" life, I often find myself wishing that I was born someone different.
One thing that I have learned in growing up, is that no matter what you believe (ie. god etc), you were given your life for a reason. all of these things that you are going through, they are supposed to happen, and they are making you stronger (not just in a health sense). And you know what, there is no normal. Your life, at this exact moment, thats normal. If you want to go back to a part of your life where you felt more normal, keep remember that the past is the past, the future is the future and right now its the present! So live for today.
Your life is SOOO important. and no matter how hard it is right now - which I can only imagine, that it is extremely difficult - there has got to be someone who loves you and wants you to get better. I live for my mom and she lives for me. thats how we get through the tough stuff and the everyday stuff.
I can't stop the urges to cut yourself, but have you told anyone about them? because sometimes just telling someone will help you. You'd be surprised how much the people around you can help when it comes to being depressed, maybe they can even help you feel a little more normal. If they do know but it still feels like you're alone in all of this, maybe you need to talk to someone else (like me?! :p). If you need someone to talk to, who maybe gets a little of what you're going through, you can always message me.
I know that my little advice wont change the big picture, I can only hope it shed a little light on a new perspective. If you need anything, I'm here for you babe!
-Angie91
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You've got to realize that all the surgeries you have had are meant to help you and fix whatever is
wrong with you...you are normal people have surgeries if they are needed i had a surgery myself in the past but you can't focus on the past you've got to focus on the future you'll be able to go to school and work once you fully recover and feel better cutting yourself isn't going to make the situation better just worst by cutting yourself
your obviously hurting yourself & others that love you try and think positively not negatively maybe that will make the situation go smoother(:
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