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I don't eat
I take my sadness out on myself. I don't eat normally like other people. I know it's bad. But I can't stop thinking about it. The calories, the food, it's always in my head. But I'm so happy when I weigh a little. Like today I weighed 103 and I was in a good shock. I was scared that I might weigh more, but I weighed less.
I know that people view this as hurtful and I know in some part of me that it is. But it's not so simple. I like to see my bones. I like to not fit in a size 1. And I joke about my thinness with my friends. But it's not always a joke. I still see that pouch on my belly and I hate it.
I don't hate myself. Today I found that I looked beautiful. I haven't seen such a beautiful me in a long time. And I thought for a moment that I do love myself because I have a beautiful face. I don't have to be like these people whose lives I wish I was living instead of mine. There are individuals that I idolize, certain people, I wish I could be like them. But today I thought it's okay to be me. But these people aren't skinny necessarily. That's not why I do it. I just feel happy when I am thin.
I am not looking to tell my parents about this. They already force me to eat more. I don't even think I can change this. It's a part of me now. And I honestly don't think that any advice can change it.
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When I'm sad I don't eat either...I lose my appetite and I just don't eat or even eat very little. The thing is its just whatever you're not hurting yourself its just how you cope...so what if you lose a couple of pounds...just make sure its not 10 in a week. Maybe you should just talk to someone about it if you feel sad often. I've recently lost some weight but now I've maintained a diet that is healthy and works for me!
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im not sure what your asking but im just going to tell you that you dont have to not eat to feel and be skinny.by not eating your going to make yourself sick.you can become anemic which will cause your skin to turn yellow and cause red/dark bags under your eyes.your lips will become chapped from the low deficiancy you have in your body and you will become more imune to getting sick.your bones will become weak and you wont be able to do the things you want to do like play sports or lift heavy objects...your setting yourself out to getting hurt,physically.you need to eat so that your body can get the nutrients it needs for it to grow.so you had one day of feeling beautiful,wouldnt you want a lifetime of feeling beautiful??
you dont have to eat fatty foods just eat healthy thats all...eat some carrots,some celery sticks,have an apple.i promise you,your not going to gain wieght but you will look hot and more beautiful everyday and all the time
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Well being that skinny isn't healthy and not always beautiful like some people may think. Make sure you get all your nutrients and eat 3 meals a day. I know you said you like to be skinny and that you look good that way. Most people don't like really skinny people. You can still be skinny and "fit" at the same time. I would eat more and try to stay as healthy as possible. Hope this helps.
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