i'm in so much pain i don't know what to do.i just finished an anxiety disorder cause and for the first time in ages i felt like there was help.now i just feel myself going back to my lost self.i don't have any jobs or friends, and i don't have a reason to live.i've just got SO many problems.i just feel like giving up.
i'm sick of feeling this way, and i'm sick of feeling so crazy.i don't know if theres any hope for me.
some times i wonder if i'm a pedophile 2. i would NEVER act on these feelings, but their there all the same.i can't trust myself.
i have a partner i've been with for almost 5 years. i don't want to be with him but i feel trapped.i feel like hitting him soimetimes- he just dosn't get the message I DONT WQANT TO BE WITH HIM the relationships fucking killing me. but i've got noone else.
I came from a three year depression, four year anxiety, seven years of cutting. Four sucide attempts. I'm here, I'm alive, and happy. Trust yourself, trust me. Your here for a reason.
You can do better than who your dating, trust me. If you aren't happy with him/her, it won't ever change. Move on. You CAN do it.
adviceman49 answered Sunday October 25 2009, 1:20 pm: I am a great deal older than most of the advisers on this site, so my advice will be somewhat different from what you may have received and may continue to receive from others.
It would be easier to offer some advise if you had given your age and sex. Not having that I will forge ahead with some general advice based on what you written.
Two things you have written concern me the most. First is the statement: “i don't have any jobs or friends, and i don't have a reason to live.” This to me sounds like you are heading down the road to giving up on life and possibly thinking of suicide. There is no reason for this as there is help as close as your telephone for you. There is no problem that cannot be resolved, I know, I’ve been there.
There is a hotline the, National Suicide Prevention Hotline, 1-800-784-2433. This line is answered 24/7 by trained counselors who can help you find people in your hometown to work with you for little or no cost to you. They also have a web site: [Link](Mouse over link to see full location). If you are still feeling the way you where when you wrote to us I would suggest you call them or go to their website. If you are having suicidal thoughts either go to the nearest hospital emergency room or call 911 immediately. Never be afraid to call 911. As a first responder I can tell you what will happen is they will dispatch the police, Fire, and Ambulance. The reason for the police is for your safety and the safety of the other first responders. Everyone responding to your call for help is coming to help you. No one will force you to do anything or go any place before you are ready and comfortable with what is going on. Your well being is paramount in this instance.
The second is your concern with being a “Pedophile.” Saying you would never act on these feelings depends on how strong these feeling are and how strong these feeling may become. Finding out why you have these feeling may be the means to keeping them in check. There are also medications that will help as well as therapy with a therapist trained in this area.
As for your partner: This situation is adding to your feelings of anxiety and most likely depression. You need to get out of that situation ASAP, even if it means temporarily moving back in to your parent’s home or with a sibling. You also need to call the Suicide Hotline, even if you are not at the moment feeling suicidal. This hotline also helps those who are feeling depressed. Tell them everything you have written to us so that they can best help you find a clinician in your area best suited to help you. You cannot recover without professional help, but you can recover with it. [ adviceman49's advice column | Ask adviceman49 A Question ]
sia answered Saturday October 24 2009, 12:13 am: ok did you write this the same day you and your partner got into and arguement?sounds like your verrry angry at him.
1st step to do is get out of the relationship, hes holding you down and making you misrable. so i suggest move out and loose any contact with him then hell get the message. tell him its over and pack up.
get a new job, move somewhere where you know no one and can start fresh becqause to me it sounds like your in an environment thats holding you down making you feel misrable and depressed so now what you need to do is get yourself out of that environment and into a new, and better one
if you say you would never act on your feelings then your not actually a pedophile. once youve acted on hose feelings then you are one, until now stop making yourself believe you are because sweety your not, your just not thinking right, your not feeling right either so that can affect youyr thoughts [ sia's advice column | Ask sia A Question ]
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