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one last chance.
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(Sorry if this is long) Okay, well there's this boy let's call him Adam. I met Adam my freshmen year. I had two classes with him. We weren't really close friends, but we talked a lot. I guess you can say we were acquaintances. He was really nice with me and he was really great to have around. Then out of nowhere I couldn't bare talking to him because I would freeze up. I caught myself staring at him numerous times. I found myself taking the same way he does just to see him. Long story short. I realize I had feelings for him. I still had him for those two classes and we continued to talk until second semester when my schedule got change and so did out seats. I only had one class with him and he didn't sit anywhere near him. So, we stopped talking. And that really hurt me because he's the only crush I've ever talked to and was friends with.
The summer before my sophomore year I thought about him nonstop. But when sophomore year came by I realized that he has changed...a lot. You could tell that he was until drugs and stuff. And I just wasn't attracted to him. So, I got over him that year. I liked other guys. But something happen towards the end of the year. I started to like him again. I really don't know why. I just found myself passing by where he hangs out all the time.
The summer before junior year I realized that nothing was going to happen. And that I really shouldn't like him. He's not a good example and he's into drugs which I don't approve of. And I guess you can say that I got over him. But on the first day of school I saw him and all these feelings came back. And all my junior year I liked him. I have had a boyfriend during my junior year, but I still had feelings for him. I would see him after my classes and we would look at each other...and I don't know. I just get all these feelings when I look into his eyes. He totally changed from my sophomore year. He looked better. And it looked like he cleaned up his act. And all of my junior year I would walk around school looking for him. So, I liked him.
Well, it's the summer before my senior year. And honestly, I'm tired of having feelings for him. I have tried numerous times to forget about him, but I just can't. Everyday after work I pass by his house just to see if he would be outside (which he never is) I want to stop feeling like this. This is my senior year. I don't want to go all year thinking about him and following him. I'm really getting tired of it.
I don't know what to do. I want to forget about him. But I don't know how. How come everytime I forget about him, I fall for him again. This is my senior year, my last year in high school...I don't want to go all year dealing with him. I just want to get over him. But at the same time I want to talk to him and I want to be close to him like it was freshmen year. I want to be friends with him. I am so confused. Advice anyone?
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i really feel that the reason you're so hung up on this guy, still, is because you never actually dated him. so, you're still wanting what you never had. maybe once you did date him, you'd realize it was totally wrong (since you disapprove of drugs and whatnot). and maybe you were wanting to avoid this, but, maybe you should talk to him? because otherwise, this is going to drive you insane. maybe something GOOD will come out of the situation. there could be that chance that he likes you aswell, and you could finally give that very very long awaited romance a chance! or, he won't like you and you guys could remain friends. but i agree with you, that going into your senior year you don't want to have to deal w/ always wanting to see him & stuff. so talking to him is probably your best bet. best of luck!
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This may not be the answer you want to hear but in my opinion when things like that happen to me--where the heart can't move on from one guy, it's because you never had anything with them officially. Meaning, since you guys never dated your heart can't move on without giving it a shot. Maybe you should just go for it and try a date and see if things work out, and if they don't it will be much easier to move on and I'm sure it'll be easy to remain friends.
Sometimes, you have to experience things to fully get over them. I've gone through this with a guy for years..we finally decided to try to date and it didn't work out, for the best though because now I don't constantly think of him.
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