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So Alone. Becoming Depressed
15/f.
I guess this isn't really a question, but to see if anyone has gone through what I am going through now.
You see I seem to be getting more and more depressed lately.
I just feel so alone. I have friends, but I don't have like a super close friend who is always there for me. I don't have a boyfriend. The guy that I have liked since seventh grade is now practically dating this amazingly pretty girl who seems to have everything. It just hurts so bad because for some reason I thought that he had feelings for me. It makes me feel like I am not good enough, or pretty enough.
I don't think people know what I am going through. I live in a nice home, my parents have good jobs, and I get good grades.
People don't understand that every night I turn up my music (so my family won't here me) and just cry.
I don't know if I should talk to my mom about going to counseling. But, you see, I've went to counseling before when I was younger because I was sexually harassed, and I know that if I talk to my mom about counseling she will think that its about that and really isn't.
Anyway... I am kind of babbling on... so I'll end it here. Any input would be great.
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I swear middle school is the worst years everrrrrrrrr. Anyway, yeah I remember being like that too. I can't even remember why I was so sad. I was just so insecure with myself, and any little thing would just make me so upset. I was really depressed, and I remember feeling just like you do. I never ever told anyone, and I can't believe I'm even typing this out now. I don't know when it exactly happened, somewhere around 9th grade, I was just like, I don't care what anyone thinks of me, I am who I am, and I'm just going to do things my way. I misbehaved alottt when I was in middle school, and I cannot believe the person I am. I'm in high school and I don't think I could be a more smarter confident person.
Don't bottle it up inside, it only makes it worse, I remember that. I was so scared to tell anyone, because I didn't want to get made fun of, or be embarrassed by it. But I'm sure your family loves you, and wants to help you. Even just talk to a friend, or write in a journal how you feel. If you have any part of you that ever wants to kill yourself, or if you've tried, tell your mom!!!!!!!!!!! or someone else you trust. Your family loves you and cares about you, just remember that.
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I have been going through this same thing, getting out of it finally. I got so bad that I was to the point where I had shut everyone out of my life. It took alot to get to where I am now, and after you are a little better does not mean that you wont have any more bumps along the way. I would talk to you mom about getting a counsler they help alot sometimes it takes a few tries to find a good one, I would suggest a girl, you can relate to them more. Also make sure when you talk to your mom that you tell her its not because of what happened then its whats happening now, at school and emotions Im having. You might also want to talk to your dr. and get on an anti-depressent. I am on cymbalta and that is what really helped me turn around. I also would write, get a journal and just write your feelings, it helps and you can go back through and read it and see your progress with emotions. Feel free to come talk to me any time you need to:)
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I have been in the same position as you since I was 14 and I'm 17 now so...yeah. I'm still sortof depressed. Ah who am I kidding, I'm still very depressed.
However, it does get better. I've found myself and I feel more sure of myself. Looks aren't the reason for my depression anymore. 15 is an extremely difficult age. Don't even get me started on how much I hate 14 and 15. It's an awful, unsure, stupid, pointless age. I never felt like I was a part of the world and no one was ever interested in me.
But it got better. I found what made me happy and you will too. Be on the lookout for new guys to distract you, maybe even get a job as a distraction. I always wanted counseling also, but never got it. It does help to spill your guts to someone so maybe it isn't a bad idea.
Just remember that there is a light at the end of the damned teenage tunnel.
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I think every girl has had at least one moment where she is depressed or sad and feels like no one in this world understands. I know I have. I've had times when I've felt just like you feel about this guy. He's with some other girl and she's super pretty.
When that happened I would sit at home and listen to "Unpretty" by TLC over and over again. And yet I know I'm not ugly I'm gorgeous regardless what anyone else thinks and so are you. It's amazing what a guy can do to a girl's mind.
I'm not so sure about the whole conseling thing but if you are feeling like this everyday. I think you should go again, they can help you.
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