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Someone else knows the truth. Two days after I was molested, my dad dropped me off at the YMCA daycare center in my home town. I took one look around and left. I ran home falling many times on the way. I made it home. It is a mile and there are a minimum of 5 turns.
My "stalker" has had 4 different people tell me this story over the last 24 years and I am always 3 years old in the story.
My dad had a policeman come to the house that night to scare me. They told me I could have been hit by a car. I said, I looked both ways. They said a dirty old man could have gotten me. I said there werent no dirty old men.
I dated the son to the policeman who came to the house. In 1995, as we were coming home from a date we passed the house where I used to live and he said "My dad told me he once responded to a call at that house because a 3 year old little girl ran away from the YMCA and made it home." My response was "Well, we're the only family that lived there and I was the only little girl". Duh I was still blocking the memory.
One reason it is so hard to remember suppressed memories is every time I have remembered things I actually relived the terro and horror of it all!
Should I have taken these memories to my grave? My "family" members are wicked. You see, it always is, always was and always will be all about them!
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There is no one here on this site that can help you, not even me. I am not there with you, I can't see what you see, or know what you know, none of us here can.
I can tell you that in my experience, living in the past does no one any good, there is a reason for the saying of, "Put your past behind you", do you know what that reason is, it's because you can't go back and change it. The only thing you can change is the here and now and your future.
You need to talk with someone face to face on this, a professional that has seen this kind of thing before. Psychologists have dealt with things like this and you need to find a way to become whole again. Please find someone good that can sort all this out.
Please my dear lady, your troubles are far beyond the people here. Take control and find someone who can truly help you.
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