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finding my own personality
my name is Rachel and iam 19 years old and my personality has been changing alot ever since i turned 16 and i don't know why i'll tell you what my personality use to be and what it is now to give you the idea of what iam talking about ok to start off with before i turned 16 i was a goody two shoes and when i turned 16 i started doing things that i wouldn't normally do like here's a few suggestions when i turned 16 i was dating this guy who was 20 years old and i snuck over to his house and i use to wouldn't even look at a guy in that way and then i started cussing when i turned 16 and then at 16 whenever i got mad at mom i ran away and went to my aunt's house whenever i got mad at my mom and then when i turned 17 i tried my first ciggerate and i use to get onto everybody i knew for smoking and then when i turned 18 i started smoking all the time and now iam addicted to the nicotine and then when i was at my friends house i tried oral sex with a guy for the first time and then i tried drinking and then i tried pot and then i went online a met a guy off the internet and then when i turned 19 my sister turned gay and she started having sex with girls and i wanted to know what it was like so had sex with a girl and then i went as far to go out with a girl and i used to be a gay basher you know talk bad about gays and tell them they were going to hell for what they were doing and i think i might be bisexual myself and if anybody could please tell me why iam doing these kinds of things when i use to be such a good innocent girl please help me.
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my friend used to be a goody two shoes, and she changed, but its just experimenting, although, i think you should really stop the smoking, its disgusting! but yeah every thing else is just experimenting, everyone gets curious at some point or another.
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When young adults now begin to mature things can get very odd and scary. The media has pushed younger and younger generations into believing that immoral things are right and that we should steer away from our own conscience.
Here is what you're not quite getting. The whole idea of you even remotely THINKING about asking this question is your conscience SCREAMING at you to stop. You know you're on a very, very bad path and you are lucky enough to have a conscience that is trying to get through to you.
What I'm saying is, you have simply began believing what the media has fed you. The media has fed you crap like:
1. Smoking is okay as long as you "try" to quit sometime. Smoking can be very fashionable, especially if you're underage so you can show off your ability to manipulate people into purchasing the product for you. There are many products out there to help you quit smoking when you really want to so you don't have to worry about the consequences right now. Oh, and sure it may turn your teeth yellow but don't worry--there are many products for that too!
REALITY: Smoking is habit-forming and shows to be highly addictive. Like any other drug, the addiction will always be inside the person even after years of no usage. It is a daily struggle, especially while in the process of quitting. It is VERY expensive to attempt to quit. Smoking is also not fashionable; it makes you smell bad and cough a lot while turning your teeth yellow.
Oh, and whitening your teeth is quite harmful to the body too. It weakens enamel and usually includes fluoride--which can surprisingly cause cancer!
2. Lying to your parents is trendy and perfectly acceptable. They're not on your side and they don't love you after all. They are really stupid and don't know any better--you are a lot smarter than they are! Heck, they never even make time for you anymore! Hide things from your parents so you don't have to deal with their stupidity.
REALITY: Your parents are trying their best, most likely, to give you a good life. This means they have to help steer you in the right direction. They completely understand the confusion you're going through and, though it may scare them at times because they see themselves in you, they want you to turn out to be a good, functionable person. The reason they're not at home much now is because of how society has turned--both parents now need to work full-time to support one normal-sized family.
If you lie to your parents, they are completely unable to help you. When your parents are not able to help you, that means you've ruled out the only people alive that KNOW something you don't know. This leads to a lot of confusion and forces young people to turn to the media for advice. Your parents are there so you can come to them with problems and get good, solid advice--when you rule them out then you cannot look to them for help when you really need it.
3. Being gay is not bad at all. As a matter of fact, gay is totally in right now! Lots of famous people are gay--and when you're gay, more people will like you! Speaking of orientation, the best thing to be is bisexual because it doubles the chances that somebody out there might like you! Yeah, bisexuals get lots of great attention. There isn't anything wrong with not being straight! Gays are so much smarter.
REALITY: Gays are not any more brighter than straight people. The reason the media SAYS that people feel that gay people are bad is so that the people they are telling to be gay will feel that the world is against them. When this happens, they will turn to the media for the "truth" about life. They don't "fit in" any more so they feel that nobody can possibly understand how they feel. When they meet somebody else that has been fed into being gay, they instantly feel a spark and engage in a relationship of sorts. When you have lots of people feeling like they really do have something in common when they think it's impossible to find a match, you get lots of STDs spread around.
When everyone ends up with STDs, they will be ill and broke from needing medications. They will have to lean on the government for their entire world. They will be easy to control and manipulate even more than now. They will buy what you want, when you want, and how much you want them to purchase when the faux-money that you hand them.
And there are tons more of examples that I can list really. It takes a lot to be able to open your eyes to this but it's reality. It's so sad to see the world crumble in front of your eyes because of what the media has done. We've been told to break down our own families, which has left us lost and confused. The confusion and lost feeling has caused us to engage in sexual relationships with anyone who might even be slightly interested in us--leaving us with major illnesses. The illnesses will leave us with an inability to work and function properly so we will have to rely on the government to pay our way through the rest of our years. Throughout those years we will still be so blind about what we are being fed that we will continue to listen to the media, helping to break down other generations.
When you realize what is going on around you, you are more able to change yourself. Changing others is more difficult but you can spread your knowledge of what you've realized.
Try to undo what you've been led into. Reconnect with your family, try to make the most of what you have together. Everyone has bad times, and everyone has fights during these times of stress but you shouldn't completely abandon those who can help you and care about you.
Pick up a Bible and go back to your past. The Bible is our history. The Bible will help you figure out what you need to be doing. Learn about God. Help others in any way you can. Occupy yourself with helping--join a battered women's and children's shelter to help them, join a soup-kitchen, gather supplies to send to shelters, help feed the homeless and elderly, visit the elderly and give them a chance to spread the knowledge they have gained, etc. When you do right for others, you fill a big void in yourself that you may have not even known was there.
Stop worrying about sex. The whole point in "being gay" or "being bisexual" is about having sex. Don't worry about things like that. Sex is worthless now and so many people have thrown down their virginity that it's became a stupid trend. Don't risk your health for a few minutes of feeling like you belong somewhere. You belong with God, and you should make yourself acceptable to Him.
Stop smoking. Just stop. Yeah, it isn't easy but you really need to. Stop buying the cigarettes and save the money for something you do need--or share that money with people who really need it to survive. Yeah, maybe you'll feel like crap for a week or two, and maybe you'll have major cravings--but that doesn't mean you have to run out and buy your weight in lung cancer.
Try to stop buying into the bullshit the media is telling us. Magazines, television, movies, celebrities--they're all telling you a bunch of lies to simply bring you down so you'll be easier and easier to manipulate. Open your eyes and change your ways.
I hope I've helped you see what you've been overlooking. If you have any more questions regarding this subject, please feel free to ask me :)
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