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I don't know what I want
I don't even know what I am asking, I just needed to be able to turn somewhere and speak my mind.
I've been having the hardest time trying to fine something that makes me happy. I've cried myself to sleep for the past two weeks. I have thought about killing myself. I hate school, and I used to love it. Dance, the one thing I used to find comfort in, is the last thing I want to do. My parents tell me all of our financial problems, and they don't get along anymore. Every day I go to school, I put an act on and pretend everything is okay. In fact, I am so good at that that I can't even be normal. None of my friends know that I'm so upset. Nobody knows. I am seriously making myself sick. People tell me all their trivial problems and say things like "MY LIFE SUCKS" or "I'VE HAD A TERRIBLE DAY!" when they have NO idea. And I would like more than anything to scream at the top of my lungs that I am mentally sick. I don't know what I should do. I'm seriously a mess and nobody knows.
If you read this, thanks. And sorry that it didn't have a purpose, I just needed to say something.
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you sound like me; as crazy as it seem things will get better for you. i hold things in too its deff not good for you & don't cry your self to sleep no long everything will be okay things get bad & then thay get good it just happends that way why i dont know but you have to enjoy that good time while you can & then exspect for the worse & catch it befor it gets to you. trust me by now ive been thru it call ibut if you would ever like to just LET IT OUT come to me i haven no prob listing to you.
cause i'm going thru it and i'd like for someone to just listin to me<3
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Confessing that you've noticed you have a problem is the first step and it's a good one.
I, personally think you should tell your parents that you don't need to hear about their financial problems anymore, they shouldn't be telling you these things to begin with. It's hard telling them that you don't want to hear about it though. Try sitting them down in a relaxed environment and explain to them how it's making you feel.
You should try to confide in someone, even if it's one of us, at least it's someone and you're letting it come out.
You could also try talking to a specialist, or even your local GP, they're very patient and understanding, maybe you might need some medication to get through the hard time your trying to deal with.
Try putting yourself in a relaxed environment, like a day spa or even take a day out, just take a day away from the stress and problems.
I, too suffer from depression and I'm on medication for it, I thought I couldn't feel happy again, but with time and patience, I'm alright now, and I'm helping people, well, trying to, so you never know what can happen.
Try going for runs, sometimes running or walking can stimulate the mind and generally make you feel better, and hey, if you feel like screaming, go somewhere were there aren't that much people and go for it, let it all out if you want to but the most important thing is, just don't give up.
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Well, let me tell you. Your parents' financial problems are not something they should be discussing with you. They are not "our" problems, they are "their" problems.
Yah, they are obviously telling you and causing you worry. There is nothing you can do, it is not your problem, so try to let that weight go off your shoulders.
What I think you should do? You should sit your parents down and tell them what is going on in your head. They can't help you fix the problem if they don't know there is one. Even if you make hints at having a problem, they probably can't see it, because they are wrapped up in their own right now. You need to MAKE them see it by SPEAKING UP.
I'd wager that all the problems at home are bringing you down. Your parents may not realize that you are being put in the middle of their problems- financial AND marital. That's not fair to you.
Suggest to them that you ALL attend family counseling TOGETHER. For your sake.
Why? Because they may be having their problems, but your problems come first. You are their child.
If they are unwilling to do that, then they need to help you seek counseling for yourself.
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its a good thing that you recognize that you need to get help...whether its slow and subtle or drastic... if you wanted to keep quiet about it ive been told to write all my feelings down... i have tried it but it never did quite work for me...
it sounds like you are depressed...majorly...especially if youve thought about killing yourself... you need to go to talk to someone... a relative? friend? what about a school counselor? and then i think you need to go to a professional therapist (psychologist) because they can refer you to medication if that is whats needed...they can seriously help you...i think that would probably be your best option... really
also if you need someone to talk to you can always write me...ive been through a similar situation and im not great now but i also know that it feels good to have someone to turn to and talk to and have them just listen to you...
just stay strong...you can make it through but you need to get help for yourself pronto
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