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my 'bff' and i at a party he tried so much to hurt me it wor
my life is falling apart in hate~13/f i ask alot of questions about being gothic and depressed. but i always thought my life was the worst ever but no now it is. i feel useless like absolutly nothing now just am stareing and feel nothing. just 7 minutes ago i was crying my eyes out and screaming and just going crazy. then it just all came to me. my life. i went to a party yesterday. my bff is a guy jake and a girl carly. so im with them alot. then carly is friends now with jakes other bff. so theres us 4. 2 girls 2 guys. jake and i love eachother so i thought. carly and tom like eachother. the 2 guys thought itd be funny if they danced with every other girl. tom tried to make carly jelous bc he likes her alot but she wont date him and she used to like him. she was drama. i keep everything in i have no real emotions. she cried for tom. i ignore jake. but he was trying to make me jelous tom even said. but jake wouldnt even talk to me at all 2 bffs not even saying a word at a 6 hour party. who in a 6 hours would talk so much. i love him but hate him so much! his bday is tomarrow and for my bday he was counting down and everything and emailed me a card and said he missed me. but for his bday 2 marrow i dont know what to do. i hate him so much right now! he danced with every girl even 2 of my bffs. their gothic to he even said they scare him. if they scare himn he had enough nerve to dance with the only 2 people who freak him out. to hurt me. i have 4 bffs and out of the 4 its him carly who was crying and was in so much drama and them 2 he danced with. im going threw alot im loseing friend before the party. i have 6 i think now counting them 4. but i dont even no now. becuz if he goes threw so much to hurt me to make me cry for2 days is that bffs. jake and carly are everything to me their my main 2 bffs i dono what id do w/o them. im crying my eveys out now. even in the time i was writing this Q i changed how i feel so much. out of my favorite songs 'i hate everything about you' and 'pain' by 3 days grace explain me. bff of 2 years wouldnt do this to eachother what swrong? why would they try to hurt us especially him? i told him in person i like him he told me he loved me. is that what alll guys do? how do i change it? what do i do for his bday? why dance with the only people who scare him so badly (my 2 othe bffs) to make me mad? why ignor me? how do i ask him by starting with something else not directly the party. he cant take hints and doesnt like directly doing that to him? and anything else i for got. please answer soon by atleast 10am 2 marrow pleeease. i cant go on. all the hate i go threw with parents cousins friends enemies strangers and now my bff the last person i have other that my other 4 bffs. but out of everything in my life i care about him. its drivin me crazy! please help soon
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okay first, calm down. I was really depressed for a while and I had to go to counceling because I was sliting my wrists. Just calm yourself and know that everything is going to be okay. There are a lot of things that mess up a lot, but you always need to stay strong and hold yourself together. this boy is obviously better as just a friend if he is going to hurt you like that. I don't like seeing people hurt so I am trying my best to think of what to say. Just explain to him that he really hurt you and that you like him and you don't feel comfortable with him acting like that. Explain to him the story that you just talked about and that you can't stand being hurt like that any longer.
All I can really say to you is to explain and try and stay calm.
I'm sorry, and I hope I somewhat helped.
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