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Feeling suicidal.
15/f. This isn't really new for me. But it has been bothering me for the longest time. I apologize if this is long. If a person were to look at me, from an "un-biased" point of view (towards me) they would say my life is pretty cool. I get good grades. My parents get me anything I want. My parents actually CARE. But...lately I've been feeling ...sad. For NO apparent reason it seems. One of the main reasons...perhaps, is a guy. He's just been playing with me...and backstabbing me...and then coming back to me and asking forgiveness. He's made me depressed, and made my emotions go BIZERK. Also, my parents put too much pressure on me. Over grades....friends.....etc. They basically control and expect TOO much from me. I can't deal with it anymore. At school...NOBODY wants to be friends with me. Just because I'm smart. NOBODY ever talks to me unless they need something. And I feel so used by the people I actually call (and am able to call) my "best friends." No guy ever liked/likes me. I hate it. I feel worthless. It's a young age. But I can't help it. I started cutting myself not too long ago...and now I'm just confused. It seems like I have a good life...but it's all too much for me to handle. :/ How can I overcome this suicidal and worthless feeling?
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im sorry. i know how you feel. i am in the same situation. i am a good child with good grades and amazing parents. some would say i am very lucky. but then a guy came and stole my heart and then led me on. he showed me he cared and then told me he only wanted friendship. he made me cry every nite and day. he made me go through a very difficult phase of my life. parents do put a lot of pressure on me as well with skool and also with chores. friends can be backstabbing and cruel and some ppl arent worth being your friends. its very difficult at times and it all seems to pile up. i cut myself too. the only pain i can control i suppose. i wish so badly that this guy would like me, i mean really badly.
but we are young people. we should see every challenge as an opportunity to grow and become stronger. think of it this way, as long as you live you will have to endure hardships. what determines whether you will be sucessful or not is your attitude. you are worth something. we all are. these are the hardest years of our lives. but they can also be the most fun if we make them that way. in order for your life to change, first you must change. it is the only way you will ever become happy:
"Today I rededicate my life to world peace
To be strong that nothing upsets my peace of mind
To talk health, happiness and hope to every person I meet
To make friends feel that there is something good and beautiful in each of them
To look at the sunny side of everything to be optimistic about life
To think only the best and work towards doing and expecting the best
To be just as happy about the success of others as I am about my own success
To forget any mistakes of the past, and press forward to great achievements in the future
To give so much time to improving myself, that I have no time to criticize others
To be too strong for fear, too kind for anger, too happy for worry
To lift my heart with faith each day, so that i may shine forth in my life
these are very powerful and inspirational words. i hope you can get through this. i myslef find life to be difficult at times. never lose hope though. it will all get better soon enough. be all that you can and dont worry about wat everyone else does. once you become happy, everything and everyone around you will take notice and your life will head in a possitive direction. if you need anything, anything at all leave me a message in my inbox and ill get back to you. good luck!
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at one time in my life i felt suicidal. I used to be sad for no reason to and at one time in my life i felt like everyone just came to talk to me if they needed money or something but the best thing you can do is talk to somebody you can trust and just let it all out so it isnt trapped inside of you if you tell someone it feels like a huge load was taken off your chest it feels good. You feel like all your problems are gone.The worst thing you could do is take it out on yourself if you keep on doing it you could really hurt yourself. You can take my advice or not but all i am saying is talk to omebody you will feel alot better :D
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Trust me i know how you feel.
I went through the cutting phase.
The guy thing i understand too, not to long ago i was in your shoes, but i saw that the way this guy made me feel was not good at all, as bad as it hurt me i cut things off.
My parents are crazy too about grades, and to tell you the truth it gets completely crazy sometimes you know how they want you to strive for the A and not settle for less.
Also i use to have those friends who were a bunch of backstabbing (well i think you know the word i was going to use) we will say Jerks.
Now to the whole suicidal thing, again i was in your shoes a couple of months ago, but what kept me from doing it was, think of it this way THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE WORSE OFF, and if that doesn't help think of someone the good things you have in life, example;Siblings, your parents, friends, and other family. How would they feel if you did something. You sound they a bright kid soo im not worried about you going something dumb.
Every person goes through this phase and trust me its a phase, you need to realize your not worthless,May i suggest doing something for yourself something you like to do and only you.
Your 15 enjoy life don't get caught up in the drama , your smart and thats whats going to get you somewhere in life. As for boys i know your probably heard this before, but the right one will come. You will have to get through a couple of jerks eventually though a good one will come.
Just remember:
-Cutting and physical Harm is not a good answer and i know how you feel but it'll get better without that.
-Boys aren't the most important thing and the fact that your smart intimidates them.
-Parents are going to put pressure on you, but just try not to think about it.
- do something to make YOU feel better.
-BE PROUD that your smart
I'm here to help if you need....
-Sky-
P.S Dancing to music helps me sometimes....
get your mind off things....
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