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Depressed
I've become this depressed slump in the pass couple of months and there's no one to blame but myself.
I let selfish feelings take over and I got attached.
My mind is eating itself up and everytime I seem to open my mouth, no one seems to care.
I don't even care anymore.
The thoughts I have are stupid and fuckin pathetic.
But I can't control them, Or hide them like I use to. I need a release. But I don't have one anymore. Hanging out doesn't work, going to shows doesn't work, Writing doesn't work - Everything I write is an added complaint to the last thing I wrote.
I feel like I bring everyone down when they're around me.
I'm mad. And I feel like no one cares... And the people that do seem to care, I just can't bring myself to open up to them. So yet again, this is all my fault.
Sometimes I get too stressed and end up crying. I can't control it anymore.
Other days I feel like destroying everything in my sight... Luckily, I can still control that.
I wonder how long I will be able to.
I actually had this feeling not too long ago and it's 1 am in the morning.
I'm scared of what's coming. I no longer have school to keep my mind busy.
Graduating should be a great experience. But it wasn't.
I still can't stop thinking about him... I fell in love. How could I have let this happen again?
Why do I get attached to people and always end up getting hurt?
It's an endless cycle and I don't know how to kill it.
It hurts. Everything hurts, and I don't know how to kill this pain.
I need something, but I'm not sure what it is.
I'm not sure of anything anymore.
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I've been in that position so many times. And I know exactly how you feel. But you're letting a boy make you feel this way? A boy is making you depressed? I doubt he was that great if he hurt you.
Whenever you're in a relationship, or about to be, don't get attached. It seems hard cause you're used to it, but it's really not. Just think: "Well, maybe the relationship won't work out, so I'm not gonna put a lot of time into it." Or something like that. Or, you could have space from each other, because if you're together constantly, you're gonna get attached & whatever, and it just sets you up for heartbreak. It happens everytime. But if you've got space, you're not worried about him, he's not worried about you, and no one's attached.
Remember, when you're in a relationship, you do have a life besides that relationship. Don't let your boyfriend take up your whole life. And don't give him everything you've got, even if you want him to have it, because when you do that, & they break up with you, you've got absolutely NOTHING left.
Get a counselor though, or get a close girlfriend you can talk to. Because counselors don't usually work [well, they didn't for me], and some kids are homeschooled or whatnot & can't go to one unless it's a real one that you've gotta pay for. But one of your close girlfriends is always gonna be there. And find something else to occupy your time with. Keep writing [even if it is complaints], because most of the stuff you write when you're depressed/mad or any sort of unhappy, it turns out to be your best. Some of my best work is from when I was having a case of depression.
As for a release, keep music with you. It seems like it's not exciting, but it always helps me. Whenever I get pissed or depressed, I put on my music & turn it up as loud as possible & just sit there. It helps me, and it usually stops me from doing stupid things like destroying stuff, or cutting myself.
And don't get any ideas about cutting yourself, it's not worth it; AT ALL. Also, when you get mad or depressed, go to sleep. I do that, and when I wake up I forget what I was mad about. Or I skateboard. I do a whole bunch of things.
I write, I skateboard, I listen to music, I sleep. All of those things seem to help me, and I've recommended them to other people & they say it works just as well for them. So try it. =] Those are ALWAYS my escapes, and I love them.
But also, if you need someone to talk to, you can leave your screenname in my inbox, or feedback, and I can try to help you through IM as well. =]
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it seems like everyone has a point in their life, where everything seems to be going downhill. Well the best thing to help you be less- depressed would be excercising. excercising, can help your body feel a better and look better. i remember when i use to be depressed,and i thought no one cared. but it was the excercise , that hepled. and the key to being depressed is NOT laughing. just a couple yrs. ago i barely ever laughed, but when i laughed it seemed like the grass was a little greener, and the sun was a bit brighter. Or you could even take up a hobby. do something you enjoy, or fine relaxing, such as reading, or even yoga.
HOPE I HELPED
***HERSHI WISHES HUGS AND KISSES***
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you know the amusing thing is that i'm dealing with the exact same feelings as you are. I read this and was like wait, did i post this? Because thats how I'm feeling about all the things in my life right now. Except that it's 12:33 am.
I got more attached than I should have and got hurt instead. I can't get over him and at the same time I know there's no point in doing so and that it's over. I am graduating in a few months and it drawing near is not as exciting as i hope for. nor is school anymore. I dally between wanting to just cry my heart out and wanting to destroy something everything.
Leave me a message, maybe we can discuss these mutual feelings and figure out how to deal with them. Besides that, I don't know how to offer advice. I could tell you what my friends told me.. but i dont know if it'd help you. But if you would like to know, message me anyway.
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