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Unhappy, doing stupid thinkgs that i shouldnt, i just need s
well ok, let me give yout he low down, im really upset, ive cut my left arm a few times and bit my right to let it all out and now im just sat here in tears, its my relasionship i think, im 18, and so is she, weve been together 1 year and 3 months and i donthingk its working anymore, she keeps sending me messages like, i love you, i hope you know that, which are scaring me now, ive been in other relasionships but she hasnt, im her first proper bf, and it seriouse, so im worried about brekaing it up! that worst thing ius afgter an awful night at work and coming home to my dad being a prick for no reason ive had some beer, probably too much, put on some Idiot pilot, (i would say music that helps you to be sad) (is very god though) and ive started to cut my self, not on my rists , just the top, i dont wanna take my life, i dearnt,i love my parents and brother too much, but i need something to let it all out, ive hit walls befor and done this before but not as bad, Thing is, and im so sad and upset (in tears) about saying this, but my mum would so freak if she new, my uncles an alcholioc and hes basicly messed his liver and other stuff up, had to have opperastions and alsorts, and seriosuly...if she new i was doing this, she die... i cant imagin it.. i dont wanna, im scared thinking about her, because i love my mum, and she doesnt need this right now, i dont think it would ebvre get any worse then this, i cant talk to my family , they dont understand, and all my friends have gone to uni, im scared, and i cant think for my self anymore, i keep gettin into the car and hope i get hit, just so everything will sort its self out, and i wont no, because ill be in a comma, or sometrhign, im scared because im think like this,its not right and i cant help it, and io cant stop it, some one plaease do something that will stop me feeling like like this,.....
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Dude, You have to go counselling. You have some sort of depression going on. And it's normal to go into that phase at your age. I was there once, and it helps.
Or try going out with your friends more often, and get yourself all tired out.
Go exercise or something.
Once you tire yourself out, you have absolutely no energy to think about anything else, except for the bed.
Then, before you know it, the hormones are stable and there you go. Phase over. :)
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