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boys boys & more boys.
so it all started in august. i had really liked this boy for 2 years & now i would never see him again. he hated me. it hurt so bad & i just couldn't get over him. then i met this boy at a drama camp i went to. he was amazing. i was going to a private school now so everyone was so nice. he, especially, just blew me away. i ended up falling for him & a week later i was cured of my heartbreak. we were friends, we talked a lot, & even online. everything was going great. my life was finally getting better. i was telling my friends from my old school about how happy i was. it was great. then, the school year started. all my friends i had made in drama camp stopped talking to me. they acted like they didn't even know who i was. one day i got an instant message from a girl who was a friend of the guy i liked. she had read my myspace & noticed one of my friend's comments about the guy i liked & how happy i was & such. she asked if it was a boy she knew, which of course it was. i lied & tried to cover it up to my best ability, but it didn't work. she knew. i begged her not to tell him because i wasn't fully recovered from my last hurt & i wasn't ready to handle this rejection, again. she told me she understood how i felt & agreed to kept it quiet. me & the guy i liked never talked in school anyway..& i never knew why..until i made a friend. he was yet another friend of the guy i liked. i thought by being friends with him maybe i could start being friends with the guy i liked again, even if we still talked online like we were friends. me & my new guy friend got along really well. we talked online every day. he was awesome. then, one day, he told me he was so confused about if he liked someone or not. i told him i was good with that stuff so i could help him. he told me there was this girl he had been talking to for a few weeks & they get along really well. he thought he liked her, but wouldn't know for sure until he knew of her feelings. so i asked who this girl was. he asked me if i would be upset if it was me. suprised, & nervous, i said no. no one had ever liked me before, & of course it was me. then he told me the news. the guy i liked new. he was afraid of me because no girl had ever liked me before. he hated me & thought i was annoying. whenever he was near me, he'd look over a lot to see if i was leaving & if i didn't, he'd run away. he even began to run away from some of my friends. this i didn't find out all during that night, but noticed it over the course of time. as this happened, me & my guy friend who liked me became better friends. although i had lost a friend, the one who told the guy i liked how i felt about him, i gained another. he was also a friend of the guy i liked. this just recently began to fade when he started taking orders from the guy i like, along with another guy i befriended along the way. the guy i like pulled all of his friends to him, & left me with one, as if it is a war. & the one i have left also lost friends in the process, people he had known for years. he says it doesn't matter because they're jerks & he loves me & i'm his best friend. i feel bad though. lately, every day we get closer & closer. i begin to think about him more & more. people have noticed because there's a rumor going around that we're dating. since he's not great for looks, people laugh & point when they see us together. it just goes to prove how shallow some people can be. when i think about him & stuff, i feel like i like him, but lately i haven't been sure about my feelings whatsoever. i rarely think about the guy i like anymore, although i still feel as if i like him. it's just that he's such a jerk. he acts nice around people [not just me] that he truly doesn't like. he only likes his close friends & shuts everyone else out. he's two faced, in a way. my other friend is so sweet though & we talk about everything. he's pretty much the best friend i ever had. i don't know what to do. i miss the feeling of liking someone with all your heart. i want it back. help please if you read all of this. i'll definitely give you feedback. thanks.
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Hi! Look, stop feeling bad it will not help you... Smile and go out and face all these idiots who cannot understand you and how much you deserve... I guess you want to know what i think about their behaviour. Are you sure you don't do something that annoys them? Are you sure you don't do something that shows them only the bad sides of you? If you are sure about these things then i will tell you that they do not even deserve to think about them and get stressed and things like that.
Now, if you want this feeling back let it come back. I think that you are afraid of wanting someone and love him because you do not want to get hurted you don't let it come back...
What you should do is letting yourself a little bit free and don't think always to find someone to love! Let things happen. If it is meant to be it will be for sure. Maybe the guy friend maybe someone else but it will come in your life when you will be ready for that... So, think your life, having fun etc and nothing else!!!
And next time you will see a behaviour that changes go and talk and solve the problem because before losing something we have to fight! And if you want friends show your good personality and fight for them, risk for them, make them feel important. Especially with girls do not talkall the time about boys because they will feel less important. And if now you don't talk at all and they trust you tell them something. Not important things but something!
SMILE HAVE FUN AND LIVE EVRY MINUTE LIKE IT WOULD BE THE LAST ONE!!! Ihope i helped!!! Kisses and good luck!
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well..personally I would go for the guy who sticks up for you, the one who treats you better.
The one you used to like a lot [and I think you still do?] well..he doesnt deserve you. You deserve much better then him. If all he can do is pretend he's your friend and turn his back on you..its not worth it. But the one your hanging out with now. He's stuck by your side through everything! And it sounds like everything has been rough. He's lost friends for you, I think you said he's gotten made fun of..well it was all for you. I dont know about you but I think he cares about you a lot. And I think he deserves you. You deserve a guy that will treat you with respect and not turn his back on you and even if everybody does turn their back on you he'll be like "whatever..f*** you!" and he seems like that kinda guy. That other guy lost out. I think you should go for your close guy friend. With Love x3 Kellie x3
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