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well in April of 2005 recently.. my aunt died.. i took it very hard because i was very close to her like staying with her days or weeks at a time in the summer,shopping and stuff like that just another best friend really.. well ever since she's died i have had weird dreams about her like she's alive in my dream but im there when she dies.. she died from an anerism i wasnt there when she had it but i was at the hospital.. well that weekend she died i was pose to go over there but instead i wanted to see my boyfriend.. i keep thinkin things like if i would of seen her she would of lived..or i was suppose to be there for her.. well everytime i dream about her were always tanning,talking and stuff like that then she just dies.. i dont understand this dream maybe im not suppose too but i keep wondering if things would of been different if i didnt diss her like that.. Also im having a very hard time believing in God i was raised to believe in God and that Jesus died on the cross for our sins but its really hard.. i mean i pray and everything still but its still hard for me to believe.. so if you can give me tips on how to deal with this id really appreciate it and sorry its so long..
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You can't place the blame on yourself. There is nothing you could have done to prevent an aneurysm. By you having dreams about her, that's your way of grieving. It's healthy. Just remember all the good times. Everything happens for a reason. I can't do anything to MAKE you believe in God, all I am going to say is he put your aunt in a better place. Maybe she was suffering.
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awww i feel so bad and dont worry it wasnt your fault you couldnt help that she got sick and passed away and dont blame yourself im sure your aunt knew you loved her and for your dreams maybe your just not over her and maybe you havent forgave your self honey work on that and she will always live in your heart
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Its not your fault you weren't there with her when she died. Anurisms cause a quick death and most don't even know they have them. Had you been there the result would have been the same.
You dream about good times you had with her and the abrupt end of all those fun things. It is normal.
I am sure she understood your wanting to be with your boyfriend.
Here is a website that may help you understand your grief better. :)
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