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Theres this guy. [No real names, just fake names] His name is "Jorge." You see, I've known "Jorge" since I started 8th grade, and when he started 7th grade. We seem very young, but really, you can be in love at any age. So anyways, we met and all, and we always flirted, he was so sweet. He'd talk to me till 5 in the morning on the phone, and i was sick at home one day so he like purposely made himself throw up IN SCHOOL so he could be sent home just to be sick with me. He'd always give me compliments every time i put myself down.. like "Gosh, i wish i was prettier." and he'd say "What are you talking about?! Your beautiful." And he really did love me, he admitted it. He was the best thing that ever happened to me. he asked me out 2 times, and I said No. Why? Because was an idiot that was scared of commitment at the time. Anyways, he gave me my first kiss, which was really special. ill never forget it. But then, someone said something that made us stop talking. So, our friendship faded. From then on, we'd pass each other in the hall not saying a word or even giving a glance to each other. At that point, i finally realized how special he actually was to me and how much i really needed him. So, I was in a stage of heartbreak, you know? And I was too shy to tell him how I felt, because at that point, he changed. He was depressed alot and he like suddenly became a man whore, with a bunch of girls wayyy more popular than me. Pfft, im not even "Popular" Gayy. So, why would he want to waste his time on me?.. I figured. I was so sad, I couldn't stand it. So for months and months on end, I went into EMO mode pretty much. I was so sad, every time I saw him in the hall, I'd try not to look at him.. but of course, everytime he'd walk past, I'd look back at him.. faintly remembering our memories, like blurry images of us together flashing through my head. It was terrible LOL. I had never felt that way about someone before. I loved him so much. I started going out with people, trying to make him jealous. I'd always see him looking at me or staring at me out of the corner of my eye at times. To try and make a long story short, i wrote "Jorge" a letter confessing that i had feelings for him, but he being a man whore had a girlfriend. But then "Jorge" and I re-united in an ironic way [by fate] after like 9 months of not talking and started going out for a little bit, broke up [i was heartbroken again] then in the summer we started talking again, he admitted he never stopped loving me but i said something that made him mad and he got all sensative about it and stopped talking to me for weeks. And now, we've started talking again.. but we go to different schools. I'm in highschool now, he's still in junior high but he's in 8th grade. We see each other every wednsday night at church. I still have feelings for him. I wouldn't change anything about him, no the way he looks, the way he acts, or anything.. because he's perfect. But now, I've got a boyfriend. his name is "Roger" [fake names again] And he loves me so much, and Im starting to think i love him back. But its funny, because "Roger" is friends with "Jorge." And the thing is... Since their friends, i've kind of been seeing "jorge" more. I'm trying to concentrate on "Roger", but "Jorge" is always on my mind too.
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Do you think "Jorge" Is still on my mind for a reason, and that he's meant to be there and god maybe has something in store for us?
Or do you think that Im just having a hard time getting over him because he's my First Love.
And should I try my hardest to move on from "Jorge" [FINALLY] and try to concentrate on my new love "Roger." Or should I follow my heart? [the thing is, i dont know who my heart is pointing to right now]
Thanks for reading this. Sorry it was a bit long.
Loves such a crazy thing, hmm? Ahhggh. <333
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I think your just having a hard time..
because your first "lover" is always hard to get over, and i think you should get over him.
to behonest..
I know what you mean.. you dont want to move on because something in you feels maybe he'll change his mind.
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