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Emptiness
I feel empty. I want to be happy and I want to live my life like I always have, to the fullest extent. But now it seems like every reward is meaningless. And I hate to say this, but it is because of a guy. When I let guys control my life, I dont know. But it happened. I can not stop thinking about this one guy. I dated him for 7 months but then I was the one to break up with him. I mostly was just scared hed fall for someone else and eventually dump me. But I cant stop thinking about him and my heart hurts everyday from thinking about him. I feel lonely constantly even if i am around all my friends. I hate using that cliche about putting on a fake smile but its true. And I am even more depressed because thats never been true. Not only that but the guy I like is also liked by my really good friend. We have been friends just this year and she doesnt know I dated him. I dont want to tell her and I am determined that if they just date then I can get over it. I have cut myself over this. I dont do it to kill myself I do it because I want to hurt myself. This has been my freshmen year and one of the worst. I know I must sound annoying with all this teenage drama crap. But it just hurts so bad. And I dont want to hurt like this. I dont want to keep crying myself to sleep praying that this will soon be over. I know I am being melodramatic and I know im being whiny but I cant help it anymore. I have these thoughts of him constantly of when we would kiss and when we would cuddle. And it kills me. Ive told him I like him and he says he likes me too but he also likes another girl. And that kills me even more. I just want this to stop. I cant take this anymore. Please someone tell me what to do. Im 15, sick and tired.
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hun..
first of all.
did you know that around 611 people in the world that you don't even know love you? its true.
the guy. is a worthless punk. forget about him. try doing stuff that will make you feel better. your friends do love you, your family does love you! even i love you and i dont even know who you are =p (im one of those 611 some odd people (=)
dont worry about what your friend thinks. you and that guy are over with and it shouldn't matter whether or not you guys went out, because that relationship is over.
the cutting thing. its okay. just try to take out your frustration out on other things. because doing that to yourself isn't healthy. just try punching your pillow or something. or screamin in it for that matter.
just try your best to forget about him, hehe and maybe even try finding another guy <3
i really do hope that everything works out good for you.
dont be depressed, forget about that dog. hes a loser.
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I know exactly how you feel, I was 15 when i went through it. I loved him with all that i had and i dropped EVERYTHING for him. I even lost 20lbs and i was way underwieght because of him..I was very depressed and didn't have friends anymore because of him. But we broke up and it was the hardest time of my life, But I made it through my friends and i hang out ALL the time and that helps ALOT. I still talk alot about him and we've been broke up for 7 months, I still love him and probly always will. Sometimes it's just best to let go..If it was ment to be he'll come back. If you need to talk to me about it feel free to IM me.. Vllybllprin6..Hope i helped. :)
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you shouldnt waste your time worring about a guy you should try and have fun you said that even when your with your friends you still cant enjoy yourself to that i say have a all gurls night it will take your mind off of the guy and allow you to have fun it will also relive yourself of worring about life for one night about the cutting i used to do that i know wat you mean about not wanting to die just want to almost punish yourself dont you have done nothing wrong but you should find a really close friend and let them know about this so that they can help you stop it took me two months to relize that i wasnt hurting myself but really hurting those around me while you are consitrating on this you shouldnt worry abou the guy but in time you will see that you dont need a guy to make you happy and while you are having fun you might meet a guy that you really love
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Ok...well, my question to you is: Do you really just like him or could it be love? I mean, the way you are talking about this guy makes me think that you are head over heels in love with him. If that is truly how you feel you should tell him that and hopefully he will give his love in return. As for the other girl, there is always a chance that a guy will like another girl, there's no stopping it. Your other option to this situation could be to just wait, let him date other people, and let him see how he really feels towards you. If he cares about you enough, he'll come back...take it from me, dating other people isn't a bad thing. Give it a try. That's what I did with my boyfriend and ever since then we've been going out. It's almost been a year now, too...so I hope my advice works. Good luck with whatever you choose to do!
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