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Jacey again,
My sister came home for summer and was acting all worried about me and stuff. I caught her following me and my friends while we were at the saktepark and when i got home we had a big fight. Here's how it went.
Jacey- WHy the hell were you following me
Emily- I'm worried about you
Jacey- Why
Emily- I don't know
Jacey- yes you do so don't lie to me
Emily- You scare me sometimes. You act like you don't even care he died.
JAcey- I care I just don't compare my life to Simple PLan songs
Emily- At least make it look like you care.
Jacey- How
Emily- You could cry
Jacey- I don't want to
Emily- Feel sorry for yourself.
JAcey- NO!!!
Emily- The feel sorry for somebody else. How about me huh?
Jacey- WHy you?
Emily- Cuz it's hard on me. I don't even live here and I'm getting called by Mom and Dad to go to all kinds of shit for him and you never even went to one!
Jacey- I didn't want to go.
Emily- YOU SHOULD HAVE YOU SHOULD HAVE SHOWN SYMPATHY FOR SOMEBODY ELSE.
Jacey- YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO LOST HIM SO SHUT THE FUCK UP!
Emily- Try acting normal for once kid
Jacey- I am normal
Emily- No you're not! You funny and you act like you're seventeen. You're too smart for your own damn good and you know things! You know way too much
Jacey- Go burry your ears in headphonees!
Emily- Go to hell!
Jacey- This is hell!
That's pretty much word for word hwo it went. I don't know why i got so mad all of a sudden, but she had it coming for her right? I'm way smarter than people think i am. There are reasons like that why i dont show them. But its summer and i want to have fun. I dont want want to dwell on what happened three months ago. Why am I still the only person who's accepted it? I want to act like act like a fourteen year old (okay im thirteen but my birthday's on friday.)
My friends are atarting to treat me the same again, but its still always a little acward when we go by Carroll Ave. I'm fin eand i need people to know that. I need peopl to stop worrying about me. I want to trust people again.
And i just wanted to say you've been a big help.
Love,
Jacey
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Wow, Jacey,
That is tough. YOu know if you were an "adult" already, no one would be bothering you. Sure they may have an opinion that you are "not showing proper mourning or sadness" but they would never think of bringing it up to you. Because as adults we are entitled to our privacy. Why not kids. Kids deserve privacy too, especially in the "feelings" department. We all, own our feelings. We can't feel another way, just to please someone else. We can pretend, and many adults do, but you know what....that is what is special about young people, they are not phony. (that is something you learn later on, just to get along better because it is easier) But don't change. Stand your ground.
I wish I could figure out the right thing for you to say or do, that would make everyone relax about how you are handleing it. Would they be more acceptable if you were suicidal over the incident!" I do think that your intelligence has a lot to do with it, and you know what. A lot of very intelligent "adults" will tell you, that very often they feel isolated from the rest of society, so be prepared. That does not mean that you cannot be happy, and have your own family someday, who love you for who you are. I am the same way, in that I don't get overly emotional about a lot of things. Some people act like certain situations are the "end of the world". What I is say is "Only the end of the world, is the end of the world. Then I'll worry."
But you have the correct attitude. Nothing will bring him back. Just tell them you are going to live you live in "honor of your brother" rather than "regret that you have a life and he doesn't".
I wish you well, keep up the good work. Your emotional stability will serve you well through out your life.
Michele
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Michele
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