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Omg I need help ...
Okay heres the story, me and my 18 year old sister both have boyfriends out of state. However my sister has her boyfriend come up all the time and I just get so jealous becuase I can't see my boyfriend for another 3 months. I know its not that big of a deal but since I JUST stopped cutting less then a month ago the littlest things make me want to do it. I sit here as I'm writing this entry listening to my sister and her boyfriend fighting about how the hicci was to big and im so upset becuase I just want my guy here right this moment. I had my mom hide the scissors from me so that I wouldn't do anything becuase I honestly want to stop cutting and I have almsot made a month with out doing it I also promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't but its just getting so hard without seeing him I just need to be with him but I cant untill July becuase of school ... the only thing that keeps me from not breaking down at night since I cant lay in his arms is that he sings me to sleep on the phone every night ... I just need to prove to him and to myself that I can hold back, that I dont need to cut ... Hes all I have and if I cut I fear that I'll lose him even though we are in love ... does anyone have any suggestions to how to keep my mind off this awful habbit when I start to get deppressed about not being able to be with him ... oh and another thing that does not help my trying not to cut is I'm on medication for depression but my dad just kicked me out of the house so I dont have my medication which causes my depression to get really bad since my body is not used to not having my meds
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wow...thats so sad...and no offense but your life would make a great movie or book so you should consider writing down everything this may take up some time in your life...this may take up some time and it may make you keep thinking about cutting yourself but it might also be something that will interest you and make you want to keep on writing and the only times you would want to stop is to talk to your boyfriend and tell him everything and you may want to try some other things but i think that this would be fun and interesting enough for you!!!!
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Thats really awesome that you've gone a month with out cutting. Every time you feel like cutting, just think of what you would be risking jsut to release your feelings, when you could release them in some other way. Punch a wall or something lol. And as far as depression medication goes, I have always hated the idea of it. It seems that doctors and psyciatrists just give it to their patients when they don't know what else to do. It's just an easy way out of life. It makes you numb and unable to feel the emotions of life, even if it is pain. It's probably good that you are off them. This way you can think for yourself and decide what to do on your own. I hope that everythings okay. If you ever need to relase your anger/sadness or just need someone to talk to, you can email me at Natileexox@aol.com. You'll be okay. And just think about how you will get to see your boyfriend in three months! That should be a good incintive to not cut or do something you will regret when seeing him.
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Tell you dad to give you your meds. Youo really need them. If he's a pain or something then call the cops and have an officer go get them for you. He won't get in trouble...nothing like that, but they can get you your meds. As for the boyfriend, just talk to him as much as possible. Try to keep busy so time will pass faster. :)
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Ok 1st relax....This is what I do when I have the urge to cut....Either go and sit with someone like your mother...being with someone might help take your mind off things.....Or call your bf and talk to him instead...tell him that you feel like you need to right now and he'll calm you down...If you cant call him call another friend who knows....or even try to breathe deeply for a while or take a hot shower
<3 Kate
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i used to cut myself all the time, and it ended up with my boyfriend getting to the point of where he was forced to say it's either me or cutting. i know what my priorities are and i chose him, you might not be able to see your boyfriend but try this, when your sister's boyfriend and her are fighting just think about the fact that you and your boyfriend don't fight like that. even if you can't see him just knowing that you've got someone who cares enough about you to want you to stop doing something that would potentialy kill you is wonderful. a lot of girls don't have something that wonderful.
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