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I dont want this
Please answer my question with sympathy and care, i need it despritley.
Andrew, I love my family, but If it doesnt sound too harsh, deep inside i know they dont love me. I dont want you saying i bet they do, thatll only make me cry harder for knowing its not true. I try to tell myself people have worste situations, but i cant stand to bare it.I give new meaning to the phrase " You see the girl in the hallway smiling and laughing, and would never even know she cried herself to sleep last night". I do everything for my house, because my mother works until after dinner, once she comes home, instead of getting closer to me and catching up, she watches me cry. I try not to talk bout my family, instead i complain bout anything but. I dont think that anybody would understand. My mother makes me cry at least once every night. But i laugh a lot and tell jokes a lot, so that my friends dont know that when im at their home i just dont want to leave. I dont want to hear you say everything will be wonderful someday, because maybe you can say something that will make me smile through these tear filt eyes. I dont know bout you, but its not fine to cry. When my mother upsets me, i stand it until she leaves, then break down. I dont know what to do. From what i wear, to what i look like, to what i say, shell find anything to insult me, anything to put me down. She loves to make my small heart break. My parents are divorced, and all the time i dream of being born into a perfect family. I know everything happens for a reason, but I just... wish this could change. Im so close to running away and never coming back.How can you help me?
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you obviously know me. you know crying is good. so you cant say it isn't. it gets everything out and once your done you feel better. its a fact. chill out and just.. cry one day. get it all out. your mother doesn't say those things on purpose. when some people are depressed they just dont care. so she probabley isn't thinking about what shes doing to you. im not going to say things will be wonderful because that doesn't seem to be what your looking for. i will say they wont be like this forever. everything changes, nothings the same. not nessacarly will everything be great, but better. sorry, if i could help you. i can only try to help.
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