|
| |
First off, I apologize for the long question.
I am a thirteen-year-old girl, and everything is making me want to die. No, I guess I don't really want to die -- I just want the pain to end.
The main reason why I hate life is because I don't understand anything in school. And to make up for it, I work so much harder than any other kid would . . . but it's no use. I have a learning disability as well, which makes me work and process things slowly. I'm just SO SLOW AND STUPID! Ugh. (This makes things a lot harder for me than other people think.)
Several people hate me. I'm pretty sure my family hates me, to start with. Especially my dad. And I know all homophobic people must hate me because I am a girl who likes girls. But no one hates me as much as I hate myself.
I know some people might tell me to find a counselor or therapist. I already have two of those. But neither of them help me AT ALL. The first one just doesn't understand me, and he does a lot more talking than listening. And the second one treats me as if I'm doing something wrong by feeling this way. I have been self-harming for a while as well. But no one is helping.
I guess I don't have too many logical reasons to feel unhappy. Feeling like everyone hates me and not doing well in school do not count as reasons. But I'm just not strong like other people are. But what is the point of going on? Why don't I just die now so I don't have to suffer anymore? It's not like anyone would care . . . they all hate me.
I wish I could get help. But no one is going to help me. I feel so alone right now and just feel like dying. Right now, suicide is just a thought. I haven't acted on it yet.
Is there anything that can be done to make things better? I don't know what to do anymore or how to go on. But I will appreciate any advice. Thank you. And sorry for the length. (link)
|
There is always something to be done with these thoughts. You're only 13, you have a lot of life ahead of you.
Also, you're not the only one who feels this way. There are so many people going through the same thing you are going through and have made it out alive.
I have friends that have learning disabilities and I can see how hard they try and they struggle. Honestly, it makes you a better and harder working person for it and that will definitely be a strong trait in your future. So you're not stupid, you just have a disability. If you don't understand things going on in school, you should look into tutoring, study groups, and talking to teachers.
I think pretty much everyone has someone who doesn't like them. It's life and it sucks. I don't know your family, but you won't be with them forever. Who cares if homophobic people hate you? You wouldn't be the only one they hate because you're not the only person who likes girls in this world. You're being too hard on yourself. I know it seems like you're the only person going through things like this, but you aren't. You won't be happy until you learn to love yourself. Even some of the most hated people are happy because they love themselves, and that's important.
Also, I wanted to point out that you don't have to stick with the same counselor or therapist. People think that once they start going to one, they have to keep going to them. I'll change my doctor if I don't feel like they're helping me. There will be one who helps you so go look for a different one.
You're life will get better. You just need to find people who will help you. Go look for a new counselor and therapist. Go search for more help in school. Go learn to love yourself. It's easier said than done but it's not impossible. You're only 13, you have a long happy life ahead of you. You are in charge of your life, don't let other people bring you down.
|
|
Rating: 5
| |
Thank you SO much! Your advice is extremely helpful to me. You're awesome!
|
|
