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it's just too hard. i've wanted to kill myself for ages. i mean i remember standing in front of the mirror when i was seven and think how nice it would be if i was dead. this can't be normal. and aside from the fact that i am totally screwed up, i have no friends, no talent, no family. there is no one who loves me, and yes, i am sure of this, BELIEVE ME. see as well as being depressed, i have this thing. it's a form of escapsism, really. i basically pretend to live in a different life, soemtimes it a futrue i hope that i could have had if i didn't kill my self. but then it like reality hits and it all comes crashing down. i know it not healthy, but can't i just live in my world? at least im happy there. i know i have to face reality, and postphoning my inevitable suicide, is pointless, but i just like it there. it makes me think that im normal, though, obviously im not. im not on here, because, 'obviously im just crying out for attention, and i don't really want to kill my self', so don't bother with that crap, i know, i've given advice to people as well okay. and don't say that someone must love me, or there's soemthing i must look forward to. even my fasasies are way too exetreme to be possible. the advice i want is simple,( and answer honestly, because either way, i WILL DIE, so deal with it): should i fantasise more and commit suicide, just a tiny bit more happier, or should i just kill my self, and spare myself any more pain? please, don't be stupid or naiive about this. i don't care about god. i don't care about the right to live, i don't care about thereapy. i just came on here for some advice. and if you do try and give me some crap rather than answer it, then thanks a lot. you should just let me suffer by myself, rather than mislead me. it not like im not trying hard enough to get by as it is, okay? (link)
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I've been through that. I'm 15 now. I've been trying to deal with that since I was like 11 or 12. I'm a cutter. And it got to the point where I did almost kill myself. Trust me, there is something worth living for. So you think no one cares about you? I don't know how old you are, but if no one loves you now then there will be people in the future. I mean, there is something because alot of people who have gone through the same thing as you and made it, have something.
There is a reason for everything that your going through. I mean, in the future you might meet somebody who needs your help with something similar. You can tell them your story how you made it and save a life.
I've been through crap, so have alot of other people. You know that. You know someone people didn't even try and just let it all go. Then others who proved themselves strong made it and are happy about that.
I have depression. You should talk to someone, even if you don't want to. When I had to, which wasn't too long ago, it felt horrible. I didn't want to tell some person my life story and think they can help me. But in the end, I think it helped. I'm not as bad as I was.
Just push yourself. Think about the future. I daydream all the time. So think about how you will be loved. College, how you'll make something of yourself and when you get married. Someone will love you then. Good luck!
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