I am female, going to be 18 on Friday, and I live in the USA.
I work in the office building at a factory and on site they have a medical center that employees can go to for dirt cheap. Since I am almost 18 I decided I should probably visit the doctor there while I have the chance since I haven't in a while and my family nor I can afford anywhere else. Then that got me thinking about my anxiety.
I have had anxiety since I was in middle school. I've always been a worrier, but it used to be really bad, to the point where I had to mentally prepare myself just to go to a checkout in a store for fear of the person speaking to me. Anytime anyone I didn't know very well spoke to me or anytime I was in a crowd I would freeze and go completely numb. My mind would go blank, I'd start sweating, I'd be barely able to speak and my stomach would get this weird feeling like I drank 10 cups of coffee. I knew there was something off, but I figured I was just a baby and tried to ignore it and force myself to get over it.
About a year or so ago it started getting a lot better.
But for the last two months or so it has started getting worse again, but different. Before it was super intense and only happened when something specific triggered it and now it's a lot more mild but happens several times a day for no reason.
I've now come to realize that it was probably anxiety, and looking back I'm noticing more and more things that point it more toward anxiety.
I can handle it and know how to calm myself down as I'm used to it, but it's really annoying to be at work and need to rush to the bathroom to sit on the floor for 10 minutes taking deep breaths until I can stand without shaking. But since I now have the opportunity to talk to a doctor for cheap without telling anyone since I'm going to be 18(no one, not even my parents, know about it) I'm wondering if I should, but I'm kinda scared of what if I really am just over reacting and I don't have anxiety and if I do what if the doctor there can't help me and what do I tell people if he prescribes me meds but I can't afford counseling and I just don't know what to do...I've dealt with it alone for so long that I don't know if I should even bother...
Any insight would be greatly appreciated, thank you to all who read.
I am related to someone who's teen was put on meds because she was shy... rather than teaching her how to handle herself around people, a skill which EVERYONE needs to learn at some point, they put her on medication for "Social Anxiety Disorder."
Months later, she killed herself. (A well KNOWN side effect of the medication she was given.) Please consider counseling before you go the medication route. If my family members had known that the doctor was PAID to write every psychotropic medication prescription, they never would have gone along with this, and that beautiful girl would still be alive today.
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