I typed "abusive relationship" because your mind can fuck with you way more than another person can...... You said you took x4 penfulls. Of what? Was it quick or slow acting? And what type of which?
If you are experiencing mental health issues, you need to go and see someone: a doctor, a nurse, a social worker, a counsellor or a religious leader. Even talk to a friend or family member about what you're dealing with.
This link (while Canadian) has links to resources worldwide.
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