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Uhhhhh . I am always third wheel. I don't really have a big school either so I can't find someone else. So I don't know, I came to this area when I was about 8 but GUESS WHAT ALL FRIENDSHIPS STARTED EARLIER THAN THAT. I found a friend and she intro duced me and we've been friends ever since but I am always picked second, here's a poem I wrote about it.
Left out in the scorching sun.
Already rotten.
I scream for someone,
Just anyone.
Instead they choose to leave me forgotten.
I was talking to my friend about the trip( we are supposed to pick someone to be with for the hotel because we are going on a field trip to LA)and I was telling them I talked to the teacher in charge of it and she'll only do a group of three for people who don't have someone. Me," I guess she'll only put threes for kids who can't get a partner"friend " I think you are that kid"
It hits me like a slap and then memories flood back. My other friend gives that friend a shut the hell up look. We stare at each other for what seems like hours and my eyes become watery. All I could think was NO! I blink the tears away and the bell rings. We walk to class without saying another word. I had planned on being partners with another friend well my only other friend and she then texted me and said she had forgot she was with someone else. It's not the drama that bothers me it's me it's just I'm always 2. Always. If my mom had to pick between me and my sis, she'd not pick me. If my friends had to pick between us they'd not pick me. 2. 2. Always. Always............................ Second .
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Hon, you didn't ask a question, just stated what you feel the situation is.
So I can't answer a question. But from the sound of it, no matter how much truth there is to the situation, versus how much of it is your perception of it, it sounds like one of those situations you need to look at in a positive light like a popular saying, "When Life gives you Lemons, make Lemonade!"
What's hard is to see that positive step you can take to feel better about yourself no matter what others think of you. Just 3 days ago, I watched a talk done by a girl only 24 yrs. old. She is living her dreams, even though she has a rare disease, one of 3 in the world that make her incapable of gaining weight. She was born with one eye missing, weighs only 65 pounds and looks like a walking skeleton. Her parents raised her as if she was normal, that she could do anything she wanted. Was she ever hurt, did she ever cry? Yes. Lots of times, but she made a mental decision to not accept what others thought of her and give up and accept how they defined her. She made one of the hardest decisions that any human ever has to do in life, not allow ourselves to go down for the count for too long, to rise above the ill treatment and decide how they want to be defined, who they really are and what they will achieve. Please dear, watch her story and let me know what you think of it and if it speaks to you. I hope it does.
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