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I dream about killing my mom.
My parents are not divorced but they don;t like living together. My dad lived in Egypt for 4 years and then came back to live with us. 5 years ago, my mom started beating me. she started screaming and throwing her high heels at me.. and i eventually got use to the pain. I hate my mom... and so a month ago i started having these episodes while i was sleeping of me standing in my mothers room holding a knife in my hand wearing a hoodie, i would go across to her side of the bed and stab her till i was happy. blood would be all over my hands and splattered all over my face, and i would laugh and cry and scream. The dream usually ends with my sister coming and shaking me to wake the fuck up. my mom has put me in therapy for problems in the past and shit like that... my therapist has said "your mind is just playing tricks on you" but i dont think it is. I almost grabbed a knife this morning and stabbed her with it because she was almost going to smack me again.... what do i do? cause im tired of being called crazy...
sincerely,
Nobody :)
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hi "Nobody :)"
We'll for a beginning we all have side effects whenever you get abused whether it's physical, emotional or sexually. Due to you being physically abused I can tell you have quite a lot of anger in you, you want to let it out but not in a pleasant way. The way you are thinking isn't completely evil as you have been prior abused, but I honestly think you need to go to a doctor or back to your therapist, and inform her that this is not just something stupid. You need help for this and the only way it is going to go away is if you tell a professional who can help, before something terrible does happen and you'll have a guilty conscience forever, telling someone isn't as hard as it looks, the first day is the worst but after that you recover an become a better person, you can do it with good attitude. Please try and get help, you don't deserve this. Lisa.
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