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I don't wanna live anymore; I need advice !
I'm thinking of suicide. I have an amazing boyfriend but he doesn't know any of this. I really am depressed, and don't know what to do anymore. I'm 16 years old. I live with my mom, she doesn't really care for me, her boyfriend who i hate so much, he's always calling me names like the B' word, and a H** and always trying to yell at me, he used to molest me when i was like 10 years old, but i just thought he was playing a game with me. I've also been really stressed, and doing bad in school, i don't really show it cause i know no one would really care, other than my boyfriend. I was raped when i was 8 years old and i can still remember every detail and all. I just don't feel like i fit in, i have no friends, everyone just left me, i used to cut myself, I'm thinking of doing it again. I just don't wanna live anymore. My real dad died when i was only 3 years old, i have so much pain inside of me, i just wish I'd die now, right now, i can't take anything anymore, I'm scared.
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Suicide is not the answer. I'm sorry you have had to put up with everything that has happened to you, it is not right. There is help for you to make it right. Even after all this time you can report this to the proper authorities and there are people who will help you do so.
There are two hot lines I would like you to call. The first is called RAINN. RAINN stands for; Rape, Abuse, Incest, National Network. When you call their number you will be connected to a crisis center near you. The call takers are trained to help you get the help you need. The call is free and totally confidential.
I'm sure you seen in the papers and on the news how people have come forward after decades have gone by to report they were raped and abused as children. This is where your at today. It happened when you were to young to do anything about it. You are now old enough to tell someone what has happened to you and the proper authorities will take the appropriate actions to punish your rapist and abuser.
By calling RAINN and telling them what has happened they will help you tell your story to the proper authorities. Call them at 1-800-656-HOPE.
The other hot line is the National Suicide Hotline. No matter what problems you are dealing with, they want to help you find a reason to keep living. By calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) you’ll be connected to a skilled, trained counselor at a crisis center in your area, anytime 24/7.
The National Suicide Prevention Hot Line and RAINN are their to help you. Please call them now. If you are actively suicidal, meaning you plan on hurting yourself now then please pick up the phone and dial 911.
By committing suicide you are letting the person who raped and abused you get away with his crimes. Don't let the bastard win. Be stronger than him and live to see him in jail and move on to a successful life while he rots in jail.
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Ian' tell you how to get rid of the pain but I can assure you that suicide is NOT the answer!
The only way to deal with the pain you have inside is to tell somebody. LET IT OUT! You've been trying to go through life quietly and not saying how you feel and it hasn't worked out for you. Keeping things bottled up just causes more pain. It won't solve your problem and neither will suicide.
I that you need to talk to someone close to you and tell them how you are feeling. If you don't feel comfortable talking to family, then you can call this number: 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
I hope this helps.
~Andrew~
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