|
how to stop suicidal thoughts
Hi internet advice givers.I have some problems,it seems,i dont know.And I need them to stop.Im a 13 year old girl and puberty has nothing to do with it.I have a problem with self harm/self mutilation(since age 11),anxiety and depression.I have a lot of suicidal thoughts too, and how tottaly normal and comfortable I am with all this scares me,I guess Im just used to it but its not a very good thing to get used to.Yes my parents do know, but I did not willingly tell them.Ive been going to some therapy,and its not helped.After my mom read my journal(she took it) she thinks that I need to go to some kind of cutters rehab and thats scary too.Ive attemted suicide twice now,once when i was 11 and cut verticly on my left arm with a sharp object but missed,and the second time a couple weeks ago when I slit both of my wrists(horizontaly but really deep)took some sleeping pills and got into a hot bath. I hate how good it feels to me to slip into a restroom or something after a bad day,lock myself in,and cut on my arms,belly,hips,and legs untill the blood is so overwhelming I have to stoop and mop it up.Im also feircly bullied for my religion,becouse I am an aitheist.I am Bisexual,but no one but my best friend who is too knows.I dont want to stop at all.I dont know why,but I just dont.Why do I want to die so much?I hate myself and really do just want to die but I know i shouldnt p-leasse help me before I cut too deep its an every day thing for the last year.
[ ]
Want to answer more questions in the Sexual Health and Reproduction category?
Maybe give some free advice about: General Sex Questions?
Okay first you have to NOT hate yourself. Please! Look im 15 and iknow sometimes bad days make us feel HORRIBLE but im pretty sure you are a great person with a big heart who is important to this world, and the people who bully you have no right in doing that. They are going to get what they deserve but until now just remember all those good memories you have, fill your head with happiness whenever you feel the need to cut yourself. Listen to your mom and go to the cutters rehab. Iknow it does sound scary but sometimes we need help from others. Find something you like , for example: a sport,or art, writing to take out what you have inside. Try not to cut anymore. When i say try i mean to do your BEST to not do it. I wish you the best & just remember to love yourself and not let ANYONE bring you down. Here is a little joke that will hopefully make you smile. "How do you make a tissue dance"? YOU PUT A LITTL BOOGIE IN IT! ha!(:
With lots of love, Erika.
]
More Questions: |