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I have never posted on a site such as this, and actually, I have never even truly contemplated ending the struggle - the fight for for life - until recently. Your post struck me because of how much I care for my loved ones. I spent my entire life in one city, earned a MA in Psychology and was a successful in my career back home. After a 7 year relationship (I am 27 years old by the way), I ended it (LONG STORY), because he developed a fierce drug addiction and I needed to start over. I now live in a new state w a completely new career and I feel like I should be moving in the right direction. My problem is that I made such bad decisions with money (earned and spent $2M in 4 years - now in debt way over $100K) that it continues to haunt me and in combo w my depression and anxiety I just cant take it any more. I cant see the light at the end of the tunnel. My family has NO money to help me any longer and being an escort in secret seems to be the only way to make enough money to get ahead. Im sad and overwhelmed and feel like I'd be much less of a burden if I just werent here any longer. I feel like the fight to get ahead in life is lost. I have been through much therapy and have always suffered from alcoholism. I now take meds for my anxiety and depression and have debated on overdosing to end the pain and struggle. I cant imagine what this would be like for my family but I just dont feel worthy of being here any longer. Any insight would be amazing. By the way, I could no be more sorry for your tragic loss and pls know my prayers are with you!
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Hi there,
The user you wrote this to, doesn't allow inbox messages to their account from unregistered users, and so it defaults to the admin's box, which is mine.
May I suggest that you sign up here:
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... and post this to the user in question, as well as asking a question to the site as a whole?
I have two favors to ask you:
1) Please call: 1-800-273-8255 and talk with someone about how you are feeling. It is free, and everyone working there has been in a similar place to where you are now.
2) Realize that you aren't worthless, and that you aren't valued by the amount of money you have.
Do you think your family loves you more if you have more money? Do you think they love you less, if you have less?
No? Well, then why are you choosing to love or hate yourself based on money you have or don't have?
The $100k is a trivial amount if you think of it as long-term debt, as opposed to short term debt. You have proven that you have the ability to make that back in short order when you get back on your feet.
If that money is keeping you from getting back on track, then look at declaring bankruptcy. There is no law that states that once you are back on your feet you can't go back and pay your debts, even if they were written off.
I hope you will take a chance and stop valuing yourself by what you have in your bank account and start to value yourself as a person who is loved and cared for.
You should know that I am no stranger to tragedy, and if I told you the manner in which that tragedy manifested itself in my life, more than once, I don't know if you would feel better or worse, so I will keep it to myself unless you feel like hearing someone else's situations and the way they have overcome them.
If you want to talk, I can be reached on Skype for voice or text as dangernerd@gmail.com
Most importantly: You are worthy of being here. I understand it may not always feel that way, but it is true.
Have you ever considered stepping out of your situation and helping someone else? Do you live near a shelter, food pantry or other volunteer opportunity that will give you a chance to see things from a new perspective?
Feeding someone who hasn't eaten in days, and might not get to eat if you weren't there, will change your life.
Which is more important: Being a millionaire, or being able to keep someone from starving to death?
Maybe you will be a millionaire someday... but TODAY, even with all the problems you face, you are still in a position to do something good. Something that proves beyond a doubt that your life isn't wasted. Help someone else. Help yourself.
Your life is worth living.
Hope to hear from you.
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