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I'm apathetically suicidal.
I made a very serious suicide attempt two months ago and was comatose for a few days and then committed to a psych hospital for two weeks. I completely lied to get out of there, it was like jail for crazy people.
I am not crazy, I love my family, I have a relatively great life. I travel a lot, I get good grades, I have close friends, etc.
But none of it means anything to me whatsoever. I just don't see the point. And I know, that means I should live for my family. That's what I'm trying to do, I'm trying to stay alive so that they're happy. It's a constant, neverending struggle. I feel like I am trapped in life. Trapped by the fact that my life can't actually be my choice, trapped that I have to live tomorrow too. It's getting exhausting.
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I wouldn't call this an answer, or brilliant in anyway (as suggested by the text above this box I'm typing in...), but I just wanted to say I've been looking for someone who feels the way I do.
I have bad days and good days, but when it comes down to it, I'm not in despair. I just feel like living (in every definition of the word) is an obligation more than anything. I love my family, but I wish I knew they'd be happy knowing I did what made me happy. It just won't happen that way though. I need to be here for them because we're all we got.
Anyway, like I said before, I was just looking for someone who felt the same and if you'd like to keep in contact, let me know. Just to express this thought with another human being, without having someone who has no idea how to comprehend why you feel this way. Maybe that will save us in the end.
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I've kind of been / am in the same place as you are. Two-ish years ago I sought help and went to a counselor, which then referred me to a psychologist. I've been on prozac ever since. I feel better, granted there are rough days and some, easier.
Have you talked to a professional about this? Don't get me wrong;I dreaded going to talk about my personal life to a stranger, but every time I left I felt like I could actually make it in this world.
Just make sure you pick the right counselor for you, someone you can connect with and trust.
It took like 6 months to see dramatic change in my mood after starting the meds, but it varies. Just be patient and take it one step at a time.
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Other than to say that suicide is not the answer I am not at this time going to attempt to answer your question. I need more information by asking you to explain what you mean by someone what you have written:
It's a constant never ending struggle.
I feel like I am trapped in life.
Trapped by the fact that my life can't actually be my choice, trapped that I have to live tomorrow too.
It's getting exhausting.
You can private message me if you want with a better explanation of your meaning for what you have written or you can call a hotline where there are people better trained to help you.
The National Suicide Prevention Hotline is available 24/7 365. The professionals that answer the phone will talks with you as long as you need to talk with them. They will also find people in your own neighbor hod to help you. Their number is: 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Call them.
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