Member Since: February 14, 2013
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Last Update: February 14, 2013
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I made a very serious suicide attempt two months ago and was comatose for a few days and then committed to a psych hospital for two weeks. I completely lied to get out of there, it was like jail for crazy people.
I am not crazy, I love my family, I have a relatively great life. I travel a lot, I get good grades, I have close friends, etc.
But none of it means anything to me whatsoever. I just don't see the point. And I know, that means I should live for my family. That's what I'm trying to do, I'm trying to stay alive so that they're happy. It's a constant, neverending struggle. I feel like I am trapped in life. Trapped by the fact that my life can't actually be my choice, trapped that I have to live tomorrow too. It's getting exhausting. (link)
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Hi
I wouldn't call this an answer, or brilliant in anyway (as suggested by the text above this box I'm typing in...), but I just wanted to say I've been looking for someone who feels the way I do.
I have bad days and good days, but when it comes down to it, I'm not in despair. I just feel like living (in every definition of the word) is an obligation more than anything. I love my family, but I wish I knew they'd be happy knowing I did what made me happy. It just won't happen that way though. I need to be here for them because we're all we got.
Anyway, like I said before, I was just looking for someone who felt the same and if you'd like to keep in contact, let me know. Just to express this thought with another human being, without having someone who has no idea how to comprehend why you feel this way. Maybe that will save us in the end.
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