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How can i live with myself?
so this is my story....
when i was 17,,i've dated this guy lets say David(he was my first)i was so deeply in love with him,that i always dreamt to marry him,,meanwhile i had this friend that i used to tell him e.th(Tom),we used to talk like the whole day in net,,anyway....David after 3years proposed and of course i said yes....we stayed 2years engaged,,one day tom came in our town,hes not from my town BTW,,,and we decided to meet,,one thing let to another and we kissed,,,:S but time after that i realized it wasn't just a kiss to me,,it was more than that,,but i couldn't bare the feeling that i cheated on David,,,,anyway i decided not to tell him,,but my feelings became bigger than i though,but i never knew what tom was thinking about me,,,so i decided not to think about him at all,,so we started our wedding plans,,,one week before the wedding Tom came and called me.he wanted to see me he said...and i was like in shock ..what the heck!!!he wasn;t in touch like 2years.. anyway i decided to see him,,,so we went this amazing place,,,so we talked,,,and we kissed again..then i knew i shouldn't marry David i was deeply strongly in love with tom,,but hedidn't even once told me that i should break up with David ,,yet i couldn't do anything,,because it was too late for that kind of decision,,because i saw all the work that his parents did,,and all the money that they spent to our wedding,,,i couldn't do it..so we get married ,,,and now its been a few month ,,,and im not happy at allll,,,and dont want to hurt Davids feeling so i always shut my mouth up...im still thinking about Tom and i dont have friends to talk to...im not that sociable,so i decided to kill myself after i heard that TOm has a girlfriend so anyone,plzz i dont want advises i need so tricks to kill myself plzzz
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I'm thirteen and I even know that Suiside is the wrong answer so please don't die I'm begging you, you may feel like it at the time but believe me if you go on with this then you will die and think about your family They would be crushed so please don't make the Suiside desision, please
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I'm not as old as you, and haven't ever made a commitment like marriage. However, I have attempted suicide multiple times in the past. I am finally in a healthy place in life and I know that suicide is certainly not the answer to any problem; it's running away from your problems, actually. If you decide to deal with your problems now, and work to make your life better, in the future you will feel not just happy, but content and satisfied with your life and the decisions you've made. I know you don't want to hurt your husband, but being passive and not telling him what you think or feel can hurt him and you more so than you are now. I wish you luck. Please don't kill yourself, life is so short, we only have a limited time to enjoy it.
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ok... i can't really give love advice because im not a woman. but ending your life for wrong choises isnt right... you got 70 years to live, and when you die nothing will follow after that, its the last bus stop
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