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Is it just adolescence or am I doing something wrong?
I know this will sound cliche, but I think I should just ask you people for advice than keep these thoughts to myself. Well, I'm a girl and I'm 15 years old. I am greek, so I apologise for any vocabulary or grammar mistakes I may have made. For the last 5 years, I haven't had any friends. Most people would either avoid talking to me, or brutally make fun of me, or talk to me for a while but forget my name after a week! I always emotionally bonded with everyone I met too much and all these people eventually disappeared. When I was in the 5th grade, I would talk to a boy that sort of encouraged me, and he was like family to me. This person moved to another city years ago and I never heard from him since. After that, every girl or boy I met didn't really want to be my friend, and stopped talking to me after a while, or simply forgot everything about me. I have tried not to be annoying (because I always used to say how I hated clubs, mainstream music and talk about politics), I have tried to talk less and smile more and be more social, but I'm just "kicked out of the society" let's say. And after all these years, I'm thinking about this boy I previously mentioned, and after every disappointment I have I just sit in my room, cry and start thinking about him again! I think I'm going insane. After my last "friend" and crush brutally let me down again, I lost even the little self confidence I had, and in New Year's Eve I just decided to stop thinking about these things, and focus on my hobbies, on photography, on foreign languages. But while I'm studying, when I stop and rest for a while, I feel miserable. Then I start feeling like a waste of space. Every person I've met prefered someone else, not me. And I'm not craving for a boyfriend, I'm not looking for a soulmate, I just want a friend that will listen to me. Everyone says I'm either "totally insane", because I like riding my bike to faraway places instead of going to clubs, or that I'm ugly. As if a face is more important than a personality! As days go by I'm getting more and more depressed. When I try to talk about that to other kids my age, they just say "Why don't you just put on some makeup, wear something nicer and have fun" but I just don't want to! I don't want to be like everybody else so that they'll like me. Maybe it's just my age, that makes things difficult, but I just want to give up. I no longer know what to do and I have no motivation to go to school, take care of myself or study anymore.
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Hello I just want to say that there are people out there that do appreciate you for who you are d not what you look like. I was like you a few years ago. I don't know how old you are so I really cant say much about the age but all i have to say is be yourself and those who are nice and all of that will accept you for you and who YOU are and not what you are. Don't try to be like other people because then it will get annoying and sometimes I see others and that's what lets say puts them down because they are trying to be someone but just can be like them or fit in. Like I said before just be yourself and the right people will come along and will like you for who you are and not what you look like and or have
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hmm i have lots of friends that dont like main music and rather watch amovie then hit a club... i think you can improve your social interpetation and responces by internet chats and apply them in real life... try xat.com for ex. but internet friends are an illusion
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