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I really dont know what i'm trying to ask
18/female
Okay so i really dont know what i am asking so i'll just lay it all out then you can respond.
This whole thing is about cutting. when i was younger like 14-16 i was addicted to it. I'm 18 now and in a completely different place in my life, however i've recently been getting the urge to do it again. i dont know why. i'm known as extremely happy and bubbly and am not depressed in the slightest. i have the average stresses as a senior who is trying to get into college but thats mainly it. but when i get urges and want to do it i hate myself for it, i feel crazy, stupid and disgusted with myself because thats not who i am and its weird to want to physically hurt myself and i dont feel like myself.i cant tell anyone because i'm too ashamed to speak about it, even to my best friend who knows first hand about it. after 2 years of not doing it, i dont know why its randomly coming back. So i guess i want to know how to deal with this.
thanks for the help!!
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I'm in basically the same situation. The first time I self-harmed I was 12 and I got really addicted to it in high school. Now I'm 19 and haven't done it in...6 months? Something like that.
For me, the urges come and go, and it isn't necessarily connected to mood. It's like with any addiction. Even if you break out of the actual cutting, the urges will randomly come back no matter how long it's been since you last acted on your desires. They're probably imprinted into your brain somewhere. There is nothing you can do to make them go away completely.
But even though you can't get rid of the impulses, you can decide what to do with them. At this point, the urges are weak enough to resist. If you do start cutting again, you will almost certainly become addicted again. So the most important thing here is not to give in.
There are things you can do to make it easier to resist. Like a recovered alcoholic, you should avoid the source of your addiction whenever possible. Do not keep convenient items for cutting, like pocket knives or naked razor blades. Don't go looking for them, and get rid of them if you have them. Obviously you can't avoid all sharp objects, but by making it harder to get to them you will help yourself resist.
Also, distract yourself when you feel yourself wanting to cut. If you are sitting alone with your thoughts and no distractions, you're more likely to act on them. So go running, try reading a book, even color pages in a coloring book. You could even keep a box full of distractions handy for when you feel the urge. One thing I particularly like is painting on myself. I got some washable kid's tempura paint, and when I feel like cutting I paint words on my arms. It lets me express what I am thinking and feeling in a way that washes off when I'm done. If you decide to try this, I suggest you avoid red paint; I find red paint to be really triggering.
Also, if you think your friend will understand you should let him/her know that you are struggling. Your friend can help you, even if all they do is offer to hang out with you when you're afraid to be alone. There is no shame in asking for help.
If you want more information on self-injury and ways of coping with/resisting it, here are two good websites to visit:
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Good luck with this. It can be really, really hard to resist, and a lot of people don't understand how much of an addiction cutting really is. But we are all stronger than we give ourselves credit for. You can do this, I know you can. Sometimes you might slip, and that's ok; no one is perfect. But you have already gone two years without it, and that is something to be extremely proud of! I have never gone such a long time without cutting since I started. You are an amazing person, and you are much stronger than you realize. So keep moving forward. Keep resisting. And don't let yourself give up.
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Hello, I understand your problem about cutting. I know that it's hard to stop, because you can get so addicted, but main reason why teens don't stop cutting is because they simply don't want to! If you really want to stop, they you will. People sometimes feel like someone will do something instead of them, but the problem lays in you, you have to stop by yourself, others can help you, but they can't if you are refusing help. :) xoxo
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