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break up after 3 years, is it worth it to hold on? will i ever move on?
I was 16 when I started dating this boy.. but I fell in love with him at 13.. I was crazy about him. I was estatic when I finally got him to date me. Things were going well, he was very jealous of my best guy friends (girls didnt like me) and broke up with me after 3 months. I somehow won him back and we were great through high school. He was always super busy however, which made it difficult to see him and spend time together. But I loved him and wanted it to work. I would go see every one of his soccer games and became friends with all of his friends. I also rarely seen my best guy friends, as i didn't like it when he hung out with his girl friends either (me and them used to be best friends and they stabbed me in the back). When it came time for us to go to secondary school, he moved three hours away to a university. I missed him and texted him everyday. I was close with his family (even though secretly his mom drove me nuts, she was very controlling, i treated her well and we got along great). I even visited his mom while he was away. things seemed alright, I would go out and party quite a bit with my new friends but i was always loyal. It wasn't until he came home after the year and started to come to the community college with me that things started to get out of control. Everytime i was with him his music drove me nuts and i felt bored. He complained about how much money i spent on myself and complained about having to spend his money to take me places. I got frustrated withhis curfews and endless homework assignments that seemed to come before me. We argued often but loved each other and made up always. It wasn't until this past november that things started to go wrong, we fought and couldn't get along. When i wanted to have sex he would push me away, when i needed someone to talk to a night (my parents were going through a divorce) he would text me and say that he needed to go to bed cause he had school in the morning. he broke up with me and i was fine, i cried the day it happened and moved on quickly, i started to hang out with a friend from high school and we got along great, the only problem there was that he was very committment shy and i knew it wouldn't work. One night while drunk i slept with an ex (i lost my virginity to the boy i am writing about and we had never slept with anybody else). A few weekends later, i slept with a new boy. I don't know why i slept with either. My ex found out about the first boy and was hurt, i felt terrible and told him about both, feeling as if honesty was the best policy. He got mad and called me dirty names. I apologized endlessly and eventually we began to spend time together again, just like when we were dating but it was better. Cuddling meant more and we did more things. last thrusday i asked him if we would be able to spend friday together and he told me that he was hanging out with the backstabbing girls from high school, naturally i freaked out and became sick to my stomach because i knew something horrible was to come. The next afternoon he stopped texting me (which was unusual because since we started talking again we texted all day, everyday) getting worried and jumping to the worst conclusions possible I began calling and calling and texting and got no replies. I finally called his house where his dad answered and told me he had gone out. Immediatly after that he texted me and said simply "im fine". I was upset and wanted answers, i got none, he stopped replying. The next morning still after not hearing from him, i called his house again, but this time his mom picked up. She rudely told me to stop calling and that i was no longer welcome in the house. She told me that me and him were not dating and that he didnt want to be my friend any longer. She told me that i was a distraction to his studies and that he had a future. I told her that i didnt understand and that we had been spending time together and texting and that i got worried when i hadnt heard back in 8 hours. she told me to leave him alone and hung up on me. I broke down. he gave no answers, he did however text me to tell me that e doesnt want me back. i asked for answers and he had none. I am hurt byond belief, we spent 3 years together and even though things began to fall apart near the end, i miss what we had. I still love him adn want him back more than anything. My freinds tell me to stay away. yesterday, knowing where in the college he would be studying, i went to see him, he told me to go away and that he wants nothing to do with me. I am devestated and dont think that i will ever fall in love again. As much as i hate to admit it, suicide crossed my mind because i dont think i can live without him. He told me we would be together forever, where did i go wrong?
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You slept with two guys because your boyfriend wouldn't spend time with you during a rough spot in your relationship, and you don't know where you went wrong?
"He told me we would be together forever"
People change their minds.
You have lost him. Even if you were able to get him back, you wouldn't have the same relationship you had before. You need to move on.
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