Iv had a long painful life full of rejection .It started as a child and into adult .My family and the people that I thought I could trust as all let me down and it affects my every day life so to speak .I can't be happy to even the things that mean most because I try so hard to be perfect in everything I do because I had nothing perfect growing up .Iv lost a lot of time trying to forget my past but its still haunts me to this day and its apart of me every day .I'm not this bad person that nobody wants or do they even care what iv gone through .Iv tried counceling in the past it did nothing for me and truly I don't know where to turn anymore .this is not some sob story of self pitty but I fell nothing realy matters anymore I just assume to live with it .am I wrong to feel this way or is there actualy hope somewhere .
No this is not something you have to live with there is help out there you just need to continue to look for it. When it comes to counseling you do not always find a good fit, let alone a perfect fit on the first or even the second attempt. The most important thing with counseling is that you are comfortable with your therapist.
When you look for a therapist you will find that there are two different beliefs in methodology of counseling. There are the “Freudians’” and what I believe are called the contemporaries’, I could be wrong with the name tag but there are defiantly two different schools of thought when giving counseling. You may have found a Freudian and not responded well to that type of counseling. Try again, this time interview your therapist telling them about what you experienced the last time. What you liked and did not like. Ask them about their methods; see if you can be comfortable talking to him/her as this is most important.
Find a psychiatrist to screen you for depression. No you are not crazy; psychiatrists are better trained than your family doctor to screen and care for depression. Treatment for depression usually is some form of antidepressant(s) along with talk therapy. Your therapist is your main treatment provider with the psychiatrist, who is an MD and can provide medication, monitors your medication(s).
After reading what you have written I would be very surprised if you were not found to be clinically depressed. Clinical depression is the body not providing enough of one or two different hormones that help you from becoming depressed. Medication corrects this problem and makes you better able to work with your clinical psychologist to get at the triggers of what cause the depressive episodes.
You do not have to feel the way you feel. I urge you to give counseling another try, this time with the help of a psychiatrist for possible medication(s) and by interviewing the therapist before starting therapy. The key to therapy is that you are comfortable with your therapist. [ adviceman49's advice column | Ask adviceman49 A Question ]
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