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PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME?????? I NEED ADVICE SO BAD!!!
Okay so it all started about a year and a half ago! I had just gotten suspended from school for the rest of the year because of fighting. My friend Mariah had ran from her group home and I joined her. After our first night on the run, we were introduced to a couple people, one of them being the boy I would fall in love with, Jason! I can replay the first moment I seen him with perfection, as if it just happened. Here came this loud, adorable boy in his dickies! It was an instant attraction! That night me and mariah stayed at his house and me and him stayed up all night.(justkissing) Did I mention we were EXTREMELY drunk?! Well the next day when I woke up laying next to him, I pretended like that night never happened, even though I had major hickies. He tried so many times to talk to me and until I was again drunk that night I blew him off! Then once I was drunk we were more 2gether, it was crazy! THEN this guy we call "blackboy" came and I found him extremely attractive, and considering how drunk I was I was completely open about that feeling! That night I had sex with him in jasons room! Long story short:: next day Jason was pissed at me but then we talked ALOT and made up and I had sex with him that night, and the next day I left and didnt see him again for a while!!!!! ......About A Month Later..... So i was no longer on the run and my birthday was coming up. And without saying I wanted to see him I was determined to make sure I spent my birthday with him, and I did. That night is the best mmemory of my life, and the night I fell in love!(July10th2009♥). We did not have sex that night but we went on a super long walk together, and spent an AMAZING night 2gether>>WITHOUT SEX!! ..The next day i went home!! .....2WeeksLater.... So I was going to hang out with my friend mario and his homeboys and we were gonna drink! well I got drunk and had sex with 2boys that night! they were cousins, and Jasons good friends, and he showed up the next day. He freaked out on me then left, and about an hour later came back and wanted 2 "talk" and spend the day with me.We had sex that night. If i went on in detail about it would take me a century to write about it BUT our relationship mainly consisted of me sleeping with his friend, him cheating on girlfriends with me, fighting, sex, alot of great memories, and in the end him hating me!!
Now here's my dilema! I put myself in rehab for three months FOR HIM! I cant deal with him hating me. We havent talked in almost 4months. Ive been working so hard to turn my life around for him. AND today I find out he's going to be doing 6 to 8 years jail time for being a look out for a shooting. I LOVE HIM!! My anxiety litterally is hurting me! Please dont give me advice on how, "I dont know what love is" or "What we had wasnt love" or "how to get over him" I NEED advice on how I can work things out with him if i write him or I need to know hotline numbers to talk to someone about this kind of thing.
When you give me advice just consider that i am an EXTREMELY determined girl who is in love and not even slightly considering giving up!!!
YES our relationship was unhealthy BUT there was real feeling there I felt it! and i know he felt it too, because he was so good at showing it!
I love this Boy and I refuse to give up!!
so please Ive heard enough negativity about this from other people! Im looking to people on this website to help me!! I know it sounds wierd and may make know sense but all the times I messed up WERE things that happened when i was drunk and i know thats no excuse at all! but as hard as it is to believe, at the begining of each of those days my plans were based on him! hoping if I hung out with his friends he would show up and I would see him! But I am a very complicated and strive for emotianal attention, and so when all those guys went for it with me it was extremely hard for me to say no, so I just give in!! I have made alot of mistakes in my life! but losing him is the one I regret most!
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Well If you say it was true love then that's all there is. But if you wanna make it work then tell him the truth and tell him you love him. Fight for him if your willing 2.
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well, the main thing that you can do to work things out with him is talk about what happened again, as in the past it looks like you guys talking have solved alot of problems try not drinking as much when your with friends, even though that may seem hard sometimes and it really seems that you love this guy so dont let him go to jail with out saying anything, try talking to him anyway you can,
and tell him that you went though rehab for him, tell him that he means the world to him and if you really want him promice him you wont do it again or something, and apologise make sure that he knows that what happened was a mistake you were drunk and your sorry and that you only want him, :) if he does go in jail then find out where he is staying and you will be able to vist him and talk to him and i am sure that if he goes to jail he would love to see someone from the outside especialy you, as you guys love each other, you have just had some bad times you know,
everyone has them
hope this helps
good luck :)
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Hey,
Obviously even though you've made bad decisions, you still know right from wrong. Just keep telling him and writing to him from your heart. That is the only way you will keep being with him. Just like you need support, so does he. He must be a pretty good guy if he forgave you for what you did. You shouldn't make the same mistakes again though or else he may give you up for someone else. Just be true to yourself, keep in contact, and strive for what you really need (which isn't booze or sex with his friends), but I think you know that <3
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