Firstly, thankyou for the advice and I'll feedback in a minute. Secondly, this is long and very pathetic but please read it.
Now here's the thing, knowing that I might see Jake (guy I like), I've been going to college looking really good and walking confidently etc. and I NEVER saw him. Then one day, I went in looking utter shit, and to make matters worse my friend did a photoshoot on me (for photography class) in which she covered my eyes in red and green eyeshadow to make them look bruised, then put fake blood all over my face. I tried to get it off but it only half worked so i was left with most of my foundation off, bruised looking eyes and red smears all over my face.
I was in a bad mood anyway, & had to walk to the bus stop. So i was running down the stairs really fast, trying to keep my head down so no one would notice me, when who I do see standing at the bottom of the stairs but Jake watching me strangely.
I was running so didn't have time to think but I was extremely pissed off when I saw him cause I knew I looked like shit, so I just glanced at him (actually I'm pretty sure I glared at him, due to my pissed off state), turned in the other direction and hurried off with a moody look on my face, shoulders hunched over as if to try to hide myself. I don't know why but in those split seconds it was like I thought that if I looked pissed off and moody it would somehow excuse how awful I looked.
I walked off really fast and then threw my head back in dispair (the way you do when you've just made a fool of yourself) only to realise he was still behind me. I then ran off forwards, almost hit the door, tried to pull it, realised you had to push it, finally got through it and hurried off with my head down.
I'm pretty sure there's no way he'll be interested now, I didn't exactly give off the right image, did I? Before I know I came across as kind of fun, confident & mysterious, this time I just came across as a pathetic, insecure, moody bitch!
What I'm asking is, should I even bother trying to pursue him now or should I just give up? And if I should continue, how should I go about it? I feel so embarrassed! I'm never usually like this, I don't know what happened! I felt confident around him before and now I don't.
I'm aware I've just rambled on about a load of crap & that even being so bothered about it is pathetic, but I'm just worried that now he'll want nothing to do with me, & I havn't really got anyone else to speak to. I don't like telling my friends who I fancy, I don't know why, I should really. So yeah, I'd really appreciate it if you'd answer.
Thankyou, x
[ Answer this question ] Want to answer more questions in the Relationships category? Maybe give some free advice about: Love Life? JustJessOx answered Saturday May 1 2010, 7:55 pm: Heyy there :)
Okay let me first say this is not pathetic at All!..
Ok you need to stop for a minute and think.
everybody has bad days! seriously we so wouldnt be human if we didnt.
To be honest chances are (and I dont mean this in a bad way) but he probably isnt thinking about this situation half as much as you are.
As girls we like have a tendancy to over anyalise situations.
nobody can be happy look good be in a good mood 100% of the time its just not normal.
Just because you may think you gave off a bad vibe doesnt mean you should give up being interested in him!
dont feel embarassed seriously he has seen what you are usually like so its not like your this way 24/7. one bad day doesnt change how people see you.
My friends see me as fun outgoing chatty nice whatever.. but when im having a bad day it doesnt mean they change their views on me or see me diferently.Its just "one of them days"
next time you see him or bump into him stirke up convirsation..maybe if your still feeling bad about it drop it in and say something like omg i had suuch a bad day last week..or whatever :)
I hope this helps! honestly just relax put it out of your mind don't over think it and talk to the guy =)
good luck && much <3
Jess
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