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ex-love (long)
16/f
when i was in 9th grade, jus turned 14 years old, i became really good friends with a junior, 17 years old. lets call him T. me and T had pretty much EVERYTHIN in common, from favorite color/food/hobbies/music, to my name bein the girl version of his, our artwork, to heartbreak/family problems, i mean everything ! obviously we bonded a lot, but he had an evil jealous girlfriend who would never let us hang out. shed send me threatening messages but she never really did anythin about it. so basically, we kept our friendship under the radar.
at the end of the year me and him began 'talkin' because him and his girlfriend broke up. the only bad part was that i got in trouble for some things and wouldnt be able to hang out much over the summer. i told him that and that we can pick up everythin after summer ended. he went back to his ex girlfriend... :(
my sophomore and his senior year, we really began hangin out more, eatin lunch together, chillin outside of school. of course it killed me because him and his girlfriend were still together. but of course they broke up for a period and time... this is where i mess up: i was scared to be in a relationship with him because we were such good friends and i didnt wanna screw everythin up. so i told him we can still kiss and dadadada :X i ended up backin out of it because it just wasnt right of me to do and i told him that.
then, he got in biiiiiiiig trouble for bein with some kids who vandalized a really expensive house and was on house arrest. he got switched into my art class and we reconnected again, but it wasnt the same, i was like shy around him.
i hadnt talked to him all summer but then i talked to him on a the phone for a couple of hours, and i realized how much i missed the damn kid. more then anyone or anythin.
next thing i know, HE HAS A NEW GIRLFRIEND, not his old one..but a new one.
i sent him a message on myspace apologizin for everythin and that i just miss talkin to him as a person and havin him as my best friend. i told him i never felt this way about anyone before and im not tryin to change anythin that he has with his girlfiend, but i hadda get it off my chest (which is true).
now my hearts broken and i dont know what to do. some circumstances i think would keep us from datin, but i feel myself wantin to cry over this kid. hes my soulmate and i just know it. what can i do !? i just want to be his best friend again., i wanna play it cool so i dont ruin his relationship, because im not a homewrecker. how can i keep him talkin to me?
thanks :(
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hay girl I understand your situaton
and I see where your wrong at and why you
regret what is happening between you and him
you did right by apologizing but did you
explain and tell him the truth
it okay to wan to be shy but if it they way
you say it is and how you feel then you
would stop wasting time you had chances and you
let them fly by till this time he found him a
newbie which is even worst why cause now he gettin to know someone new...but it still okay to
let him know how you really and just be sure to inform that your nor trying to break anything up just had to let you know..........
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