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tired stressed moody depressed but dr's say nothings wrong with me.
For quite some time ive been so tired and confussed and frustrated in everyday life, and dont know wether im coming or going. Im 25 i have 2 children and married for 7 years. Kids are healthy and sweeet my marriage is fine. But my head is pounding, I have no energy, im tired all the time and i eat quite well. I dont understand whats wrong with me. I saw the dr. and I was given anti-depressent tables, ive been taking them for almost 3months now, But i still im so depressed and tired, I went back to the dr's and had a blood test and everything came back normal, But why am I still so dam tired, I really can not function, Im just so tired and my head is so cloudy, i cant think, i cant remember things, my son misses out on kinder quite often cause i either forget or im crying and tired and cant drive him cause im not thinking straight and the fact i dont want to see people and talk to anyone. Part of me feels that im so stupid for being so called depressed where I feel i have nothing to be depressed for, theres nothing, I should be happy, i have a great life, so why do I wish i could just stay asleep and never wake up, I feel every day that I want to die, I feel crazy and confussed, but i dont understand why. I wish there was some sort of medical reason to why i feel like this, but dr's say im fine, but i dont feel fine, i dont feel normal. Im not happy but i dont know why, I feel im not depressed because im unhappy, I feel Im so tired and depressed cause somethings wrong with me. I need something to help me, not someone, cause i know theres nothing more someone can say to me to make me feel better cause Ive heard it all, ive spoken to so many peple, nothings helping, I dont know what to do anymore, I want to give up and die, but i dont, but i do, I aguee with myself and scream and hit my self and go cazy cause my head is just clouding my thoughts, I feel dum and stupid for feeling the way i do. Apart from that, I eat well, I try to do some exercise, even for 10-15min slow walking on the tredmil, nothing works, Ive put on 18kg in the last 12months, WHY? I dont know, I dont understand, I got cheaked to see if it were my thyroid, but thats apparrently normal, So I would like to know, what on earth is wrong with me. Im going cazy, I hate everything around me, but I know I shouldnt, but I do, I need help, but what, what can i do differant to what im already doing. Its crazy, its stupid, Its dum the way im feeeling, Im just so dam tired I want to stay asleep for eternity.
These poor kids are suffering, they see me crying and tried and depressed all day long, and Im just not copeing, my husband trys to talk to me, and i just cant (i dont know) I just dont understand, I want to scream. Im so tired and irrational, and frustrated.. Pplease I dont know what to do anymore, and yes Ive tried many time to kiss myself with a knife and taking lots of pain pills, nothing worked. But part of me didnt want it to work, but at the same time i do. I cant make up my mind, my head is just exploding. I dont know how to make choices, Im angry and moody and tired and depressed and i feel crazy like, and I feel this is just rediculous. I need this feelings to stop. I need something. please, tell me what is wrong with me, please?????
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You don't have to have an awful life or even be unhappy with your life to be depressed. That is a myth that leaves many people like yourself feeling guilty over being depressed, which in turn probably makes the depression worse!
Sometimes life itself just gets to be to much. My daughter has suffered it. She too has 2 young children. Close in age. But that really doesn't matter. She sometimes feels that she can't just get out and go somewhere. Takes planning and is just a pain in the ass when you have 2 kids to haul around with you. She loves them to pieces and is a great mother but because she is, she feels guilty for being depressed because she doesn't feel she has a life of her own at times.
She is very much improved. She takes medicine. It can take a few tries to get the right medicine & the right dosage for you. Don't be afraid to keep calling and visiting your doctor about it. Unfortunatley, with depression, there isn't a magic dosage that helps all people. Each person is different & what works for one, doesn't work for all. It takes some time to get it just right.
So do not feel medication isn't working for you because its been changed a couple of times. That is perfectly normal.
Since it seems you have a husband who cares enough to try and help, let him. See if he won't
take care of the kids once a week or two, so you can get out by yourself. This has helped my daughter a lot by itself. Go visit friends, your mom, or just go shopping or to a movie by yourself. If money is tight, go to the library, or lock yourself in your room & play video games!
The most important thing to remember is that being depressed does not make you a bad person. You have no need to feel guilty about it. You can be a great mother, an awesome wife and more and still be depressed.
Call your doctor & see about a med change if the one you're on is not working. I don't care if you have to visit him/her 20 times, you keep after it. Also keep in mind that it can take up to 30 days for those type of med to get in your system good and start working. Don't give up on it.
If you do not have an understanding doctor (there are some of them out there), find another one. Just don't give up on yourself. Work to get better.
Best of luck to you. I hope this has helped you, at least a little bit.
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